A Wet Christmas Eve...

Today's Christmas Eve... And now its raining.. So is my heart... Heavy and burden.. I know i should let go.. I know it should not be that case.. But still i am ready to take the result.. In my heart, I have a definete answer already.. Just that in either way, its still going to hurt.. So wat can i do.. This is the down time that i really damn hate.. I know i should not think that way, my spirit is willing but my flesh is weak.. Easier said than done... I may need some time to digest it.. A few days? A few months? A few years?!! God, not again, I hate dealing things regarding this.. Can i really pass this test? Can i pass it thru a willing heart.. Will i not think back the past? How will i even be able to let it go.. Sick and Tired... Feel like sleeping... Clear my mind of this trouble.. I can't put my heart to do any thing.. Its raining... Really raining... Very heavily...