So many thoughts in my mind..

I have so many thoughts in my mind now and I do not know how to express it.. Been asking myself alot a lot lately until I turn burden.. LOL.. too much thinking is no good... Anyways, I had my last lesson on Saturday.. The rest of the Saturdays are left for my submission of reports and oral assessment... I miss my course mates a lot.. I believe everyone enjoy a lot in the class, all of us shock hands on the last lesson and look "yi yi bu ser".. Networking is powerful! One of my course mates asked me if I am interested in a certain position.. God is good! Gotta fast for my career.. Hmm... what should I give up beside my "tei ka shi"???

My weekends...

I have been very busy lately.. Justed started my CU 4A course which will take me 4 Saturdays to complete my module.. However, I enjoy my class alot.. I never enjoy studying when I were younger.. Probably this course is more on hands on and assessment based on facilitation, I don feel that bored... The profile of the class has a great mixed of people.. And with me were 2 other trainers from my company. And in another table there were a couple of weapon trainers, which I felt it was rather interesting... We got our assessment on ice breakers games last week and we had games after games lead by one another for the whole day... Kool!

Fasting

I have been fasting from my tei ka si or rather tea with milk.. It has been a week and i am still surviving.. I have been going thru a tough time n is asking God to show me signs. And indeed, God has shown me clear enuff.. I thank God for road he path for me and will accept all tat he has put me thru.. Now i am still struggling but by his grace, i will be renewed.. Amen.. :)

Giving up...

I know everyone or everything is not perfect. And went things don't fall into your expectations, you have no choice but to accept the fact..

But sometimes, I just can't stand it when you are trying your best in something and that people is not giving a shit in it.. Or rather you can feel that there is no effort placed into something you are fighting hard for..

I always beleive that it's ok when things fail, I believe it happened for a reason. As long as you tried your best..

But if no effort is applied it is totally understandable why it fails..

If no effort is applied, don't blamed others, don't blamed God, don't blame life...

Indeed!!

As per my last post, i really made it to bt panjang to have a chill out session at my colleague's place! And in fact, i rode to her place the very next day.. My this colleague of mine is a superb drinker.. She had abt 7 pints of beer at one go and still going steady last week.. On the day we chill at her place, we shared a bottle of white wine, finishing it to the very last drop.. Of cos, she had more..

I felt a bit of kick and so rested on her sofa and probably with the help of a little alcohol, i went tipsy and soon felt asleep.. My colleague who drank more than me continued with a movie and followed by her assignment.. I woke up like 5am and found her burried with her notes.. Power!!

And so it started to rain heavily so i left my bike at her place..

Gotta get it back on Sunday! So i can continue to my next destination..

Btw, it was tues when i rode to her place.. Imagine with me how fairy looks like on the next day at work.. A dead fish!

To gombak...

Got my vintage box fixed at the back of my bike, am really happy.. Now my bike looks like a japanese communtor bike!!

Am superb excited yet a bit tired to ride out of my home after work sonetimes.. Got some inspiration from my colleagues and i rode out via little guilin to bt gombak today..

Next destination i plan to have in tis month wld be to bt panjang to look for my colleagues for dinner! Pls give me more suggestions!! I can ride to look for u if u r living in the west side of the country.. Those in pasir ris, i'm sorry.. :p

Weeeeyouuuu

In my cozy bed

I've been lying & tossing in bed for sometime.. I love to do thinking at nite.. Especially to reflex my thoughts & bla bla bla.. This phase keep coming to me for these past weeks, "let go of the past & move on.."

Probably its my sub conscious mind that always bring me to some past memories.. Of cos, in my heart i know its been long gone n things will change.. Like wat my coy like to use this phase, the only constant is change..

Yea, and probably fairy has to buck up abit to adapt to changes in her life..

Like any other person, fairy hopes to lead to great life ahead. A life of excitement, a life of joy, a life of blessings, and being someone who thinks quite logically, fairy battled her thoughts with her Father, her Lord..

And because of this simple reason, she always struggle with making decisions.. Simply trusting is always accompanied by battling, logical thoughts of the human mind..

Tat's probably the lack of faith tat causes so many conflicts within..

Nowadays fairy sees uncertainities ahead.. It seem like every step she takes are like stepping onto stones on the water.. And anxiety sets in..

She looks back at the days where decisions are made for her.. Certain pathways everyone tat are pathed for them..

Its time to grow up.. And fairy seem so foolish to have be reminded of such things after stepping into adulthood for so many years..

I sure hope like wat the bible says, for when u are weak then u are strong.