The unspoken...

After all these time, the unspoken have finally been heard...

I spoke to boss today about all my thoughts and thrash out some stuff with him... I felt better confronting him... all these thoughts within me is driving me crazy...

But now, it is my decision to decide...

Hmmm...

The last day of show!!!

Finally!!! The show is over... The last day was quite crowded due to the electronics fair just happen to be beside our hall... Can you believe that people actually start q-ing from 930am or maybe way before just for the 50 dollars voucher... Yea... Singaporeans...

One of the HK exhibitor had some shipment problem and I have to stay back to see to their shipment while they happily shop around in Singapore.. man... They are also one of a kind... Ok at least i went to shop in the eletronics fair but in the end I shop for food instead... its kinda strange that the electronics fair also sell lots of food lor... Think they must have difficulties selling the booths lah...

Saw Judy and her bf when i step out of the hall... Its kinda "qiao" to see people I know... at first I saw dawn then esther then now judy...LOL...

Now its time to make a decision... haiz... i've been thinking so much abt it lately that my face lost colour... I'm afraid that I will regret... Anyway, I shall see how it goes... but I guess it's time...

2nd day of GSO...

Finally, its the 2nd day of the show le... had a happy hour session after the show today with the exhibitors though lots didn't turn up... but still I had this F1 ride... we had this booth build at the OC area and had this F1 stimulation thingy for visitors to play... So... I had my chance during the happy hour session... My car flip in the first round and ended almost just 6 secs... Had the 2nd round, not a bad job lah... it was quite fun actually...

Attracted a wrong crowd and had some Indians sticking to me... Ok.. Dunno if they are warm people or trying to take advantage... Anyway, i had plans with my colleagues to help me escape from their stickiness...

Wooo... I am going to shop around the hall tml and get some stuff... I hope I can have peace shopping in the hall...

WoooOOooo.. It is so busy lately that I got home after 9pm almost everyday... My colleagues and myself are complaining about not sleeping well... Almost all of us dreamt of work at night... This explains how crazy this period of time can go... We were supposed to be before schedule but cos of many last min confirmation, things got delayed and all of us are going crazy...

2 more weeks and I'm FREE!!!

More than words...

Two more weeks to the show... And everyone is busy...Tomorrow one of my colleague and myself are going back to office to clear some stuff... This might be the last show for me and I really want to do some special stuff... special as in things tat people never tout it could be done... Of cos, I meant in a good way...

Met up with my ex colleague, soon to be ex colleague and colleague... I know its complicated... Many thoughts trigger my mind... Many thoughts run thru my mind everyday, but what I am facing lately are questions I haven't been answering or even felt that its not the time yet to think about... Many people told me things... Good and bad... I felt i became weaker thru the years... i remembered vivdly when I was younger, I was a very strong girl, not physically but in every area of my life... I was confident, enthu, keen to learn and mainly I never give up... In any circumstances, I never give up... Now you know why during my younger days my stamina was good... Because I was perserving...

As I look back, I felt I have change a lot... I felt weaker in mind and as a person... I do not know if I was ignorance when I was younger or I finally start to ponder on things beyond...

Many times you tried but you do not get the result you want and you were disappointed... I was disappointed... Sometimes I feel to live in a brand new place to build a brand new impression of people... People will not think that I am ....., ......, ........

Being someone who do not know how to play the game is also a sin... People look at you like you have sinned BIG time... when they do not know the full story... You tell urself its ok as long as God and yourself know what's going on... But how many times can human pass the test... You will be affected... To say that I do not bother how people look at me, its definitely a lie... Man looks at the appearance and God looks at the heart... Man run to God when they are in deep trouble... I do that too.. But why must i run to God only when I am in trouble or problems in the heart... Can't I share all good and bad times with Him.. I am trying to do that but i failed a couple of times...

People who play the game well tends to win in every game until when they fall once in a while... And I don't mind to win 9 times and fail once... Its better than you win 2 times and fail 8 times...If I can... the question is... IF i can...

Its a huge guts I could say to blog out all these things... But i really want to record down how am I feeling now and to witness myself the breakthru...