Half dead...

I hope to have some time for myself... Lately, I am so packed... Sometimes, when things dun go well... I will start blaming on the starter of these problems.. Maybe its just me who couldn't handle stress and human relations.. I sometimes wonder is this job really not suitable for me? Or is it that I should really leave when my boss asked me to back then...

I started to doubt my ability in managing people.. Am i too soft or just that I can't make myself to say certain things to people.. And as people know me better, they will climb onto my head... "Do not unto things you do not want others to do to you" Things proved that it doesn't pay to be good.. In the end the good suffer in the corner and the bad claim all the credits...

I hope i have faith to move mountains.. Then I can move the situation... LOL...

What to do? I am so confused now... this word, "stand still" comes into my mind.. I guess God wants me to stand still?

Is that a 5 star hotel or a 6 star hotel? I have doubts in it...

Mandarin Orchard service is bad!

I was invited by one of this friend from Indo to see his education method at his school which is establish in Indo and now its coming to Singapore. With the 2nd workshop held at Mandarin Orchard and no staff at Mandarin Orchard knows about this event except the cleaner...

Can you believe this? I asked for information at the conceign at the lobby and was told to look at the TV for the events of the day?!!! And he asked me to check it out myself which I told him I already had and said that it was not written there...

He then went to check it out ( not really friendly, like I was taking up too much of his time) and told me that there was no such event.. I went to level 5 lobby and was told the same... So i had no choice and went to Level 6 meeting rooms to check out myself and found out that the rooms were vacant with only a cleaner... I asked the cleaner and was directed to the location... A cleaner can tell me the location but not the conceign and counter staff!!! Can Mandarin Orchard staff take more initiative and well- informed?

Break Away...

I felt like breaking already... There are so many things to do and the show is like 1 month away.. The gal from the "big" company came on Monday evening for the briefing and start work on Tues... I felt that help came a little too late... She still need time to get used to the system, forms and enviroment... My company really dun seem to appreciate me... I think I have been saying this many times... I am trying to be positive too.. I am still feeling happy when I close a booth and I hope this sense of achivement remains before I find myself in a still mode... When you close 1, others sees that , " why 1, you should have closed 2"... "No sales? Becos you didn't follow up"

Hello... Fairy also got 2 hands only lor... And by helping me is to send help to me only 1 month before the fair? You are killing me...

Anyway, I made up my mind... If this door shuts on me, another door will open for me... I won die without this job...

At the airport now.. Probably be at jakata in a few hours time.. I'm be gg to the franchise fair in indonesia. My first time to indonesia.. I hope i will like the place.. I be back shortly even before u knew it!

As of yesterday, my company has officialy be acquisted by another company which is a wholly own subsidy of a very big holdings in SG.

So we are now staff of this company... My colleague said that I am able to take whatever it comes... That is not entirely true... Of cos, i am as anxious as them.. I asked questions too.. But answers were always vague... and I got tired... Since everyone is just as uncertain, I shall not asked too much then...

Actually the truth is, I am quite fearful to lose my job.. As now, anyone can do wat i do... It just take some time to build the experience and it can be done...

I know fear is not from God but uncertainties is wat we are facing and I am fearful.. I am not talented like abc that have their own skills. I am not as people person as xyz.. I am not as capable as efg... It's not that I am comparing myself to anyone... That's the fact of the world now... If you can't do it then out you go... Like I once had that bloody experience which I do not want history to play back again... Once bitten twice shy... I am very frighten already...

The fear of lost is very scary...

My uncle told me that stress are cause by pressure that you give to yourself... Yes, it's true... I really pray that things will go well for me in my life.. Each test comes harder to handle than the previous... Let faith cast out the fear i have... In Jesus name I pray.. Amen...

I need a hunch...

Remember I buy the book from popular in Malaysia? It is really a very useful book. I have learnt so much from it..

Many things can be read and understood theortically however technically it is not so easily done... as you know, I have been very into numerlogy and horoscope thingy recently... I regretted so much to see fortune tellers... It some how affect my thoughts about my life and so on...

The book I bought talked abt it.. "It takes a very strong mind to neutralize a prophecy of evil" Yes, and upon having the thought cast upon your sub-conscious mind, you will really believe in it and thru the faith you have in the false prochecy, it will some how be done...

Now, I am facing a carrer path crisis... and I have to make a crtical decision for myself... So I need a hunch.. I need to wake up in the morning or even doing something random and a hunch will come and tell me , ""... And I will follow...

Many times, a hunch came and my resisting and reasoning mind will ask... Why do that so I give it a miss... Proabably I missed out something that has been planned for me...

This time I will go for the hunch without reasoning.. i hope I can.. Lol.. I need very logical reason to move me to do something... It's a good thing a not... I am not sure.. But I knew God is going to change me for good... And I hope the change will be imprint in my heart...

A break for a ultimate breakthru...

I'm just back from Malaysia an hour ago... Bathed and nicely sitted in front of my laptop... I felt so happy.. I finally had a break, real break and I can see a breakthru ahead...

I read a book in Popular just now and it was amazing.. I picked up the book and bought it!!! It's a pretty thick book... If you folks know me, I do not like to read... My first and last accomplish book(till date) I think its a goosebumps book at the age of 14! can you believe it? All my friends were reading Danielle Steel books then and I had only just completed a goosebumps story book meant for primary school student...

So you can imagine how this thick book can attract me to buy it... Btw, it's not a magazine or comic... It's kind of a self improvement book which actually implements the WOG into the thoughts of the writer...

I am so eager to read this book lor... That I kept peeking into the book during dinner... Had a meal,ice blended drink and a cake in Secret recipe at only S$11.90 per pax! That's so cheap... I cannot even get such splendid food in my market with such valuabe price... Not to say in a shopping centre...

I got a new brown spec there as well.. Alright, its not done yet... will show you folks once I go for collection..

Probably its school holidays so we took some time to reach Malaysia custom in themorning even though we left SG at 9 plus in the morning... It's Brunch time when we reach there...

After this break, I felt refresh... Both physically as well as mentally... And I am ready to see a breakthru very soon..

Gambatte, Fairy...

Haven been blogging some constructive post lately.. I just heard that i be going to Indonesia for a franchise show 2 weeks later.. Actually i dun mind but i worry abt my pocket.. Lol.. The claiming part is a big issue lah.. But after the hk fair, i've learnt to record all my meals down so tat at least it brings justice to my pocket.. My cc bills is like 1000 over after i've paid half of it le! Yea lor i just do my claims and haven got the money back...

Ahhh... 钱不是万能的，没钱就真的万万不能。

anyway shall see if boss really decide to post me there for the fair..