As of yesterday, my company has officialy be acquisted by another company which is a wholly own subsidy of a very big holdings in SG.

So we are now staff of this company... My colleague said that I am able to take whatever it comes... That is not entirely true... Of cos, i am as anxious as them.. I asked questions too.. But answers were always vague... and I got tired... Since everyone is just as uncertain, I shall not asked too much then...

Actually the truth is, I am quite fearful to lose my job.. As now, anyone can do wat i do... It just take some time to build the experience and it can be done...

I know fear is not from God but uncertainties is wat we are facing and I am fearful.. I am not talented like abc that have their own skills. I am not as people person as xyz.. I am not as capable as efg... It's not that I am comparing myself to anyone... That's the fact of the world now... If you can't do it then out you go... Like I once had that bloody experience which I do not want history to play back again... Once bitten twice shy... I am very frighten already...

The fear of lost is very scary...

My uncle told me that stress are cause by pressure that you give to yourself... Yes, it's true... I really pray that things will go well for me in my life.. Each test comes harder to handle than the previous... Let faith cast out the fear i have... In Jesus name I pray.. Amen...