I am so tied up...

Hi folks, it seems like a long long long time since I have any updates here. In case, you are wondering? No I am not gone..I am still kicking and alive... As my school had started in Jan 2013. My days are packed with classes, assignments and lots of mid night old.. Tonight is another night I have to say good bye my sleep.. Gotta chiong out 2 assignments by next week.. Taking up this course takes up loads of courage. For me, studying is like an impossible thing.. I never had thought s about further studies even since I barely climb through m Diploma with SP. Having no talent in writing English adds on to the difficulty for Fairy in writing assignments. I remember my first assignments was only 800 words and it took me 2 full weeks to write and edit and phasing it into proper sentenses. However, through these struggles, I enjoyed gaining knowledge.. I learnt so much in the pass month.. Suddenly I felt so smart in just less than 2 months.. Knowleadge is indeed powerful!!! My new year resolution is simple. I am leaving everything in my life to God's almighty hands.. My studies, my carrer, my ministry and my life partner.. Sometimes, it is not so easy. With someone like Fairy, she will always uses her own effort to achieve the things she has planned for. However, over the years she realise that she fail time and again.. And each time, it gets tougher and tougher and she fell harder and harder... God didn't promise me that my life will be easy but He did promise me that all things happen for my own good.. And I will be pleased with His plans.. I am very excited for the life ahead of me.. In the first time in my entire life, i felt excited over uncertainities... Manz.. That was so not me... Anyways, last night I had a dream.. I dreamt that I was playing in a playground with a little girl.. About 1-2 years old.. She is so cute but I cannot remember her face.. I am carrying and protecting her while we slide down a long turning slide together.. After which, I went home and found that my house was having cockroaches everywhere... I went to my mum;s bed and saw many cockroaches on her bed.. and I went over to my bed and the same! I remembered myself so tired but cannot sleep because I was afraid of the cockroaches on the bed.. And felt uneasy.. Anyone can interpret my dream? Hehe...