“And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified.” ‭‭Romans‬ ‭8:30‬

“For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters.”
‭‭Romans‬ ‭8:29‬ ‭NIV‬‬
“And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified.”
‭‭Romans‬ ‭8:30‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Fairy has been pretty heavy at heart lately.. she lost some motivation with loving people.. being rather rational, sometimes it is easier to be task driven and get the job done. Beautifying words before putting across piss me off sometimes as it doesn't come very naturally to fairy.. she has been a straight  forward fellow all the years.. but in reality, people just loved to hear nice words or be encouraged.. it is only natural..

When reality hits hard and people usually sees what's on the outside.. this isn't pleasant.. though people might know something is brewing beneath, they rather keep it.. and while they do not appreciate truth in the face, fairy has to learn to be a gentile.

To be in the world yet off the world is not so easy. Fairy being a yes or no person has some difficulties to adapt properly.. sometimes, fairy try to change her behaviour trying to adapt to a situation but find it draining. Because that is not her, and she is not happy. But that's the survival game in the world and she is tired.

Sometimes fairy wonder just handling one life is tough enuff and God chose her and called her first. But yet she cannot fulfill the purpose n calling but juggling with internal battles Everyday. But also as  roman 8:29-30 says those who are predestined are called,  and those he called, he also justified, those he justified, he also glorified.

Today I pray the Lord to comfort my soul and refresh my heart. Let me see that it is an opportunity to bless n encourage rather than trying to conform myself with my own strength. I also pray that God will strengthen me to move on and bless me with wisdom to react to situation. I also pray for assurance to know my identity in Christ and with the guidance of the Holy Spirit, I may be the salt n light and may the Lord the glorified.