The unspoken...

After all these time, the unspoken have finally been heard...

I spoke to boss today about all my thoughts and thrash out some stuff with him... I felt better confronting him... all these thoughts within me is driving me crazy...

But now, it is my decision to decide...

Hmmm...

The last day of show!!!

Finally!!! The show is over... The last day was quite crowded due to the electronics fair just happen to be beside our hall... Can you believe that people actually start q-ing from 930am or maybe way before just for the 50 dollars voucher... Yea... Singaporeans...

One of the HK exhibitor had some shipment problem and I have to stay back to see to their shipment while they happily shop around in Singapore.. man... They are also one of a kind... Ok at least i went to shop in the eletronics fair but in the end I shop for food instead... its kinda strange that the electronics fair also sell lots of food lor... Think they must have difficulties selling the booths lah...

Saw Judy and her bf when i step out of the hall... Its kinda "qiao" to see people I know... at first I saw dawn then esther then now judy...LOL...

Now its time to make a decision... haiz... i've been thinking so much abt it lately that my face lost colour... I'm afraid that I will regret... Anyway, I shall see how it goes... but I guess it's time...

2nd day of GSO...

Finally, its the 2nd day of the show le... had a happy hour session after the show today with the exhibitors though lots didn't turn up... but still I had this F1 ride... we had this booth build at the OC area and had this F1 stimulation thingy for visitors to play... So... I had my chance during the happy hour session... My car flip in the first round and ended almost just 6 secs... Had the 2nd round, not a bad job lah... it was quite fun actually...

Attracted a wrong crowd and had some Indians sticking to me... Ok.. Dunno if they are warm people or trying to take advantage... Anyway, i had plans with my colleagues to help me escape from their stickiness...

Wooo... I am going to shop around the hall tml and get some stuff... I hope I can have peace shopping in the hall...

WoooOOooo.. It is so busy lately that I got home after 9pm almost everyday... My colleagues and myself are complaining about not sleeping well... Almost all of us dreamt of work at night... This explains how crazy this period of time can go... We were supposed to be before schedule but cos of many last min confirmation, things got delayed and all of us are going crazy...

2 more weeks and I'm FREE!!!

More than words...

Two more weeks to the show... And everyone is busy...Tomorrow one of my colleague and myself are going back to office to clear some stuff... This might be the last show for me and I really want to do some special stuff... special as in things tat people never tout it could be done... Of cos, I meant in a good way...

Met up with my ex colleague, soon to be ex colleague and colleague... I know its complicated... Many thoughts trigger my mind... Many thoughts run thru my mind everyday, but what I am facing lately are questions I haven't been answering or even felt that its not the time yet to think about... Many people told me things... Good and bad... I felt i became weaker thru the years... i remembered vivdly when I was younger, I was a very strong girl, not physically but in every area of my life... I was confident, enthu, keen to learn and mainly I never give up... In any circumstances, I never give up... Now you know why during my younger days my stamina was good... Because I was perserving...

As I look back, I felt I have change a lot... I felt weaker in mind and as a person... I do not know if I was ignorance when I was younger or I finally start to ponder on things beyond...

Many times you tried but you do not get the result you want and you were disappointed... I was disappointed... Sometimes I feel to live in a brand new place to build a brand new impression of people... People will not think that I am ....., ......, ........

Being someone who do not know how to play the game is also a sin... People look at you like you have sinned BIG time... when they do not know the full story... You tell urself its ok as long as God and yourself know what's going on... But how many times can human pass the test... You will be affected... To say that I do not bother how people look at me, its definitely a lie... Man looks at the appearance and God looks at the heart... Man run to God when they are in deep trouble... I do that too.. But why must i run to God only when I am in trouble or problems in the heart... Can't I share all good and bad times with Him.. I am trying to do that but i failed a couple of times...

People who play the game well tends to win in every game until when they fall once in a while... And I don't mind to win 9 times and fail once... Its better than you win 2 times and fail 8 times...If I can... the question is... IF i can...

Its a huge guts I could say to blog out all these things... But i really want to record down how am I feeling now and to witness myself the breakthru...

Damn... 3 more weeks to showdays...

Unpredictable...

The death of michael jackson definitely blow some of us away... It was sudden and no one expected it to happen...

It reminds me of the coming of the Lord could be as sudden as that... Things always happen unpredicatably... things you anticipate usually do not happen and things that never come across your mind always pop by... This is life...

Today, JL finally threw his letter... It's good that he has found a better road for himself... and now it's only LL and myself... Frankly speaking, after TN left, I already lost mood in working... And now, I guess the worst is to come...

Mistakes are not intentional... it just happen and you didn't notice... who to blame but yourself of not being meticulous enuff... sometimes, I just hope to be appreciated a little more... but when your reputation had gone down the drain... No matter what you do or say, it's hard for you to change one's impression of you...

My time will come when i change the perspective of them... Behold yea...

Emo-ing

It's been sometime since I blogged... Been busy at work lately and having frequent headaches... sometimes I'm afraid that I might get a head tumour or something like that... * Ok... I'm thinking too much again*

Negative thoughts were often entertain through out the sleepless nights and cause me to emo even more... manz... It's time to learn... Its not easy and yet not that difficult... but fairy seems to take a longer time than others to learn...

Mama's heart broken...

Please keep Pie in prayer!!! At this point of time, she must be on the operation table... If she is allergy to the anesthesia drug, she may DIE!!!

My heart is extremely heavy when the vet says that she has to undergo an operation for her legs... And she will be a three-legged hamster... Sob... = (

* Mama loves you...

Sickly Fairy...

As years pass, I guess my body has become weaker... I am on my 2 days MC at home lying and sleeping... Sis was sicked last weekend and she was kind of like coach-ridden... Luckily, I am feeling better now to at least sit in front of my lappy to type something...

On Tuesday evening, I felt a tingling pain in my tummy which I tout it could just be some indigestion problem... Late in the night, my head was seriously utterly so painful that I can't sleep tout I am super tired!!! Believe it a not, my cheeks still hurt cos of the headache... I was tossing and flipping and everything you can think of on the bed... Then I developed a fever with aches in very single part of my body... It felt sucky plus the numerous calls from "some" people where they do not understand that when someone's on MC, she needs ample rest!!!

On the second night, I tout things might have got better but I experienced diarrhoea late in the night... Manz...

It was a hell of a time... I hope I will never get so sickly ever!!!

Month end

Tomorrow, I'm going to face the meeting of the week!!! Yea... It's the weekly sales meeting... Lady boss says that she wants to go thru with us one by one!!! OMG... Micro-managing is not a good idea...

Thru these busy times, I steal some time to read the bible, though I did skip a day or two.. At least I felt I'm more interested in the WOG than before... Sometimes, it's hard to fathom God's way and even bitter towards God for allowing certain things to happen... But every single bit did a surgery in my life... Whether it's good or bad, just let me trust that God has greater plans...

May Jamming Session...

Ben is really up for real!!! Ok! If you folks want the canto song, chords are as below...

歲月無聲 - Beyond


Am Dm E
千杯酒已喝下去　都不醉
Am Dm E
何況秋風秋雨　幾多不對說在你口裡
Am G Am G E
但也不感觸一句　淚\眼已吹乾 無力在回望
Am Dm G Am
山不再崎嶇　但背影伴你疲累相對
Am Dm G Am C D E Am
沙不怕風吹　在某天定會凝聚 若我可再留下來

Am Dm E
逼不得已唱下去　的歌裡
Am Dm E
還有多少心碎　可否不要往後再倒退
Am G Am G E
讓我不唏噓一句　白髮已凔桑 無夢再期望
Am Dm G Am
山不再崎嶇　但背影伴你疲累相對
Am Dm G Am C D E Am
沙不怕風吹　在某天定會凝聚 若我可再留下來

Am Dm G Am
山不再崎嶇　但背影伴你疲累相對
Am Dm G Am C D E Am
沙不怕風吹　在某天定會凝聚 若我可再留下來
Am Dm G Am
山不再崎嶇　但背影伴你疲累相對
Am Dm G Am C D E Am
沙不怕風吹　在某天定會凝聚 若我可再留下來

Updates...

Ok... It's time to update my week... Manz... My workload is getting heavier day by day... Lady Boss is giving us assignments with some "personal" assistance... The weekly meeting and report of our progression are almost driving us crazy...

I'm learning to absorb as many things as I can and to do the operation independently with no mistakes... Experience certain lost in the company is bad and the worst is yet to come... Manz... I can already foresee the busy schedules ahead...

I know it's a opportunity for me to grow as they said... I really hope so too...

Job 11:14-20

if you put away the sin that is in your hand
and allow no evil to dwell in your tent,

then you will lift up your face without shame;
you will stand firm and without fear.

You will surely forget your trouble,
recalling it only as waters gone by.

Life will be brighter than noonday,
and darkness will become like morning.

You will be secure, because there is hope;
you will look about you and take your rest in safety.

You will lie down, with no one to make you afraid,
and many will court your favor.

But the eyes of the wicked will fail,
and escape will elude them;
their hope will become a dying gasp.

He came....

He came today... I do not know why am I angry also... Maybe I felt cheated... I felt like a information counter... I felt he only calls me when he needs some info from me... Not much ppl knows that we were close before... I can't understand why some people can change so much over time... I can't believe the fact that he just step in and out of my life... I look like a clown walking in circles...

Maybe it's my problem... But no matter wat it is... It's over... From now on, it's gonna be a new Fairy, a courages Fairy, a Fairy who can face all kinds of challenages with no tears...

Gabatte!!!

Gathering @ PS Ichiban...

Am super tired... Just came back from dinner with the folks... Was having a farewell dinner for TN @ PS, Ichiban... The time was great, we laughed non-stop due to our evil talks... Hehe... and that is for us to know for you to find out...

Pending for TN to upload the pics...

Someone must be talking bad about me today... Had been sneezing for some time and it makes my eyes puffy... Manz...

My workload had increase a bit after TN left... No longer had time for Cheers break in the afternoon... I can already foresee the busy schedule ahead since boss doesn't seem to be on a look out for a new sales person...

JL had rejected to accompany me to Grace assembly tomorrow... Manz... Anyone wants to follow me?

Jamming...

Hey folks... We are jamming on the last Sat of this month... Please let me know if u can make it...

As discussed over the dessert last jam session... I will post the songs soon... Sorry... I am too tired to update...

"Anyway, its up to you..." Yea... You say this... I also say this... sometimes, what you see and wat you hear may not be what exactly it is...

SUPER SIANZ!!!!

I really dunno how to explain myself or to express what I want to say... When I don say or say a little, dun push a little to perceive what you hear... It may not be right! It will only make me feel sian....

All good things must come to an end...

Good Luck TN....

My new Bass!!!

On the left side is my new bass.. Though is a cheapo one, at least I can practice on a REAL bass now!!!


The front view of the bass...

It's SO Heavy... I guess it must weight 3-5kg!