When things go wrong, as they sometimes will...

sometimes, when I looked at how ineffecient and unproductive people were... which causes me lots of sleepless nights, stress-filled days... I wonder... Am I like that too when I just came in... after all these years, I know my weaknesses very well... Or perhaps still discovering more on the way...

I am so tired that I felt like crying... I am not self-pitying.. I just felt helpless and I cannot express myself... when I express myself, I seem to make things go worst... When I do not, I felt surpress... I had thoughts about typing my resignation letter though I am too tired to do so... Then I chance upon this poem on the net...

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit-
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a fellow turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out.
Don't give up though the pace seems slow -
You may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than
It seems to a faint and faltering man;
Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victor's cup;
And he learned too late when the night came down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out -
The silver tint in the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It might be near when it seems afar;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit -
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

I know I should not quit... But this is not the balance lifestyle I want... I would rather earn less and have my own time than to earn more but no time to spend the money... But currently, I am earning not alot but working on the double... I hope its the transition that things are like that...

When promises are not fulfilled for more than a few times... You know this path is not as promising as it may be...

One lifetime and I am not going to slog so hard for money... I have thoughts of forming a union for Bangladesh/foreign working overseas.. to help them fight for their human rights... I think there is something like that going on now but I thought more should be done for them...

Anyway, let's see how God will tie up my current situation for me... Cos I need some revival here...