It's been a long time.

It's been a long timme since I have blogged. Even since my school started on the start of the year, I am so tied up. Taking a few mins break from my ER assignment, I decided to blog. I have so many things to update. I really wanted to update on my life so much so that when I look back in the future, I can remember these days and how I felt at this very moment while I am blogging. June 2013 has just past. June is a very tedious and difficult month for me. The prayer which I have made with God last year end, I gave a 6 months timeline to it. And June marks an end to the prayer. Recently, I have spoken to a couple of my close friends the existance of this prayer. However, only God knows the contents to this prayer. And July marks the start of my continual prayer after the first prayer, I am very anxious of about this prayer. In fact, I had sleepless night due to my first prayer and I am surprise how much this prayer affects me. God spoke to me that He will not short-change me and asked me to trust in Him. I really pray that His will to be done and not mine. Sometimes, you work things your way and hope that the outcome turn out to be the way you want it to be. I have tried many times in my entire walk with God. And well, God always has a better plan for you. I realise that each time I used my own way to manipulate the outcome turns out to be a failure and I becomes disappointed. I need to learn to be patience and wait upon God's calling and voice. That is the purpose of a prayer isn't it? To hear from God and not your own ways. June, is also a difficult time because I am having a dilemma about my career. I wanted so much to step out in faith to do what I and my colleague have planned. However, I really wanted God to intervene into every decision I make. I admitted that I got so excited over what we have planned for and I am no longer sure if it is my own desire/passion or God's calling to step out. Stepping out requires great faith because I have to give up my current job, my stable pay, my current flexi time to something unknown. I know myself too well, not a strong risk taker. I need stable finances for my studies and can I risk my savings to it? Just paid a good hard cash to school and I am almost broke. I needed peace from a decision and know that it's mine. June, is tedious because I am having my toughest module taught by the strictest lecturer. But I am glad she taught us well. I love the module but she is superbly strict and all of us slept for only 3 hours rushing for each assignemnt 1-3 weeks before assignment's deadline is up. Other than such a stressful post I am posting tonight, I hope that I have more time to update my blog regularly. I wanted to record down every feelings I've been through, every snippets of my life. Good night everyone, I am probably gotta stay on a little while to do up partial of my assignment. Love, Fairy

I need to be Anointed...

At a point today, I was rather disappointed.. I am asking God, "why?"

My 2 mentors

Not sure, it's due to the strain of time consumption, every min and hours calls for my need to sleep. Many changes are happening around me. Fairy is more or less used to school and she is able to cope slightly better as the previous month. Now, 2 of my beloved colleagues have left the organisation. Both are my mentors, and I have learnt so much from them. I really feel so sad to see them leave and I am missing them already. My team leader left us 4 days ago and it felt like months to the team. New structures and changes are a BIG thing in the organisation now and with our limitations, we can only do our best. Hope that I can give more updates to my life but.. Yea..Wait till I am slightly free so that I can post out pictures and other stuff..

God must have love me a lot...

Praying for God's protection.. temptations are everywhere.. sometimes, the further u flee, the temptation will come nlook for u.. but god did promise me that he will not any ttemptation too much for me to bear..

School

After having living in lala land for a few years.. * lala land defines as in land of comfort zone* Fairy realised that she needs a lot of effort get herself backon track especially now with the very busy schedule of school.. My bridging courses are costing my life.. As in most of my tme were spent with school, assignments and studying for exams. I remembered it was just a month ago, where my first 2 assignment was up. I took 2 weeks to finish it and I slept like only 4 hours a days because of my assignments. The assignments were not that tedious but because Fairy hates reading, she almost died reading articles and things related to her projects. Never in her life time has she read so much.. Now Fairy has kinda used to the life of busi-ness.. Today one of the first 2 assignments grades were out and Fairy scored 8 out of 10. This makes her super happy as she knows that her effort did not go down to drain. Talking about my work, some of my coursemates were encouraging me to find a new job relating to my studies so as to build a ground before I graduate. So I am still praying to God for my career path as my current job seems pretty stagnant already. Deuteronomy 4:29 But if from there you seek the Lord your God, you will find him if you seek him with all your heart and with all your soul.

I am so tied up...

Hi folks, it seems like a long long long time since I have any updates here. In case, you are wondering? No I am not gone..I am still kicking and alive... As my school had started in Jan 2013. My days are packed with classes, assignments and lots of mid night old.. Tonight is another night I have to say good bye my sleep.. Gotta chiong out 2 assignments by next week.. Taking up this course takes up loads of courage. For me, studying is like an impossible thing.. I never had thought s about further studies even since I barely climb through m Diploma with SP. Having no talent in writing English adds on to the difficulty for Fairy in writing assignments. I remember my first assignments was only 800 words and it took me 2 full weeks to write and edit and phasing it into proper sentenses. However, through these struggles, I enjoyed gaining knowledge.. I learnt so much in the pass month.. Suddenly I felt so smart in just less than 2 months.. Knowleadge is indeed powerful!!! My new year resolution is simple. I am leaving everything in my life to God's almighty hands.. My studies, my carrer, my ministry and my life partner.. Sometimes, it is not so easy. With someone like Fairy, she will always uses her own effort to achieve the things she has planned for. However, over the years she realise that she fail time and again.. And each time, it gets tougher and tougher and she fell harder and harder... God didn't promise me that my life will be easy but He did promise me that all things happen for my own good.. And I will be pleased with His plans.. I am very excited for the life ahead of me.. In the first time in my entire life, i felt excited over uncertainities... Manz.. That was so not me... Anyways, last night I had a dream.. I dreamt that I was playing in a playground with a little girl.. About 1-2 years old.. She is so cute but I cannot remember her face.. I am carrying and protecting her while we slide down a long turning slide together.. After which, I went home and found that my house was having cockroaches everywhere... I went to my mum;s bed and saw many cockroaches on her bed.. and I went over to my bed and the same! I remembered myself so tired but cannot sleep because I was afraid of the cockroaches on the bed.. And felt uneasy.. Anyone can interpret my dream? Hehe...

2012 a year of many events

2012 is coming to an end real soon.. so many happenings in 2012 and I do not know where to start. I thank God for this wonderfl year.. Though I went thru heartaches, disappointment but I also enjoyed the year and learnt many new things... One of the great event of 2012 is that Ben & JQ finlly got hitch! A very good friend of mine... And I am really really very happy for her...

The busy schedules of Fairy...

Haven been blogging for many months! Was super busy with my work, assignments and other activities! Life was so busy that it flies without me knowing! I hope time stays for a while so I wouldnt get old without realising it... Went to Din's wedding's on Wednesday at Mandarin Orchard hotel. The layout of the ballroom is superb! The tables are layed in 3 levels. So all the guest are able to see what's happening on the stage. Some ballrooms in hotel are filled with pillars and hidden in blind spots. This I could say, it was great ambience and layout but poor waiter have to walk up and down the stairs to serve us food and drinks.

Pretty Bride first Halloween @ USS. experience was great but it can be better.. I felt that the crowd was way too much for USS to handle.. The amount of people who went to USS on Thursday was like CNY at Chinatown.. It took us 2 1-2 hours to Q for each haunted house/ ride.. That was a little dissappointing.. In the end, before we went back, the Q for the cabs was like the Toto Q for 3 million dollars.. Eversince after the whole thing, I believe no Q is too hard for us to bear!

More pics uploaded in FB!

starting a new module..

Ok i started my new module for acta already.. went ti a different school, the location is really baf.. i had to carry my lappy and walk 15 mins frin the mrt station... super tiugh job for me in heels..

Super Buzy day!

I just a home a while ago! Today is a very busy day, had previews and class visits. But I am really happy to see the learners enjoying themselves in class. Today,one of these class that I have visited gave me their home made spring roll and jelly.. They are superb cooks! Most of them who gets training in this company are 35 and above.. So they are professional home makers! I was going through JQ church wedding script this afternoon, editted translated some in mandarin... Manz! It is tough! JQ's wedding theme verse is from Ecclesiastes. Chapter 3 verse 11. I love the verse! "11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also He has put eternity in their hearts, except that no one can find out the work that God does from beginning to end." God spoke to me in this verse and I think I will remember this verse for life beside John 3:16.. Haha.. God has been showing me signs and quite specifically these days... I must pray even more specifically to see if its God's perfect plan.. Ok, I am too tired to upload pics to my blog from my S3.. I shall do it this weekend... Goodnight everyone. :)

kids infestion..

Went boss daughter 1 year old birthday bash.. its was at NSRCC.. super far! Lots of kids there.. they are so hyper that i almost died out of exhaustion.. kids are cute to see n play with but when it cones to your full time responsibilty.. u really gotta pray over it!

praying for my dad...

god had shown me some stuff and new insight since my dad got sick lately.. he just got his report fron the hospital n got to know that he got some virus in his body..

the years of friendship. .

Ok, i have been trying to use my S3 to blog. So if u see the alignment running, puntunation error, and lack of capital letters.. u will know why.. I really appreciate my friendship with my friends in church as well as my sec sch mates. Though we are still busy in our own lifes, but our friendship never fade away.. Love ya lots!!!

a very blessed birthday!

Noah's arch

One of my friend sent me this..

birthday celebration at shangri-la , The Line

first ride to office!

today's my first experience riding to office! it was great! i took less than half an hour to reach my JE office!

finally, i have found another great way to ultilise my bike..

chilling on a Wednesday :p

Chilling out on a wednesday nite is definetly not a wise choice.. this morning i had difficulties waking up however my colleague who is in her 60s is facing no issues.. Damn i need more exercise..

Blind spot

It is always good to know yourself better.. In the past year i have come to realise my blind spot and its really quite a bad one.. I suppose people around me must have seen that part of me too, just that my pride is stopping myself from acknowledge it.. Which tis is a good thing now that i finally sto and stared into this blind spotface.. Of cos, being able to identify it doesnt meant that i am able to stop doing it.. Really need God's grace on this one..

Impratical Jokers

I need to block my Korea addiction... So I turned myself to some shows with individual episode.. This show from TruTV, Impractical Jokers makes me laugh through the night and my siblings and dad been complaining on my laughter... A show to share... Enjoy!