Its time to update more photos from my S3!

Fairy's Job search

Fairy's job search for the past 2 months was not fruitful. Some interviews have been arranged by it wasn't really what Fairy's looking for..

The job search was taking so long that Fairy is starting to get discouraged. Butterflies flew out from Fairy's mouth when she sees the amount in her bank account. Nevertheless, she still enjoy her life with luxurious food almost everyday, which she is starting to repent.

Fairy has been praying for open doors where the Lord wants to lead her and close the doors that are not meant to be. And indeed, not much companies has been ringing her up except her ex-company. Today, she receives a mysterious phone call and realised it's her ex-lady boss. Sometimes, she really wonder if the Lord really want her to go back.

*When Fairy sees the amount in her bank account*

New hobby..

Lately, sis and myself were into selfie... However, we took selfie to a new level, we do up extreme eyeliners and take the pictures... Below are the selfies taken today, 15 March 2014.. Enjoy..

Quite happy with this shot..

Very GD style...

I love this one.. Looks like those magazine cover page... Hehe..

I kinda like this pic too... Like a watch advertisement...

Sentosa Getaway with JQ!

Here are the pictures to our getaway to Sentosa 2 weeks back! Lots of Selfie here.. Hehe ;)

Lost some pictures while transferring them from my phone to my lappy.. :(

Myself and JQ on the Skyline

See how scared JQ is... 

Selfie shot on the Skyline..

Ready for the LuGe! That was really really fun!

Siloso Beach shots!

Very demure JQ...

Building fake sand castle..

JQ actually look super sweet in this picture but it is a little small here..

New Outlook

Welcome to this new outlook of my blog! Do you like it?

I have been updating lately since I am unemployed at a moment. Just an update, I have been passively attending interviews as I placed much focus on my studies right now. Went on to one potential interview last week. It was a good experience, I love the feeling of structure-ness the moment I stepped in. And the good news is, the HR called me just now and review the remuneration package with me and the bad news, I am disappointed as they cannot match to my expected salary. Anyways, the HR mentioned that he will review with the management and get back to me. I will just let go and let God.

 Next up JB trip on 6 March 2014 with the gals!

Morning Breakfast at Old Town JB City Square

At Neway KTV City Square

Dragon-i ( Flower Tea)

Dragon -i ( Toufu, this is really superb! Crispy and slightly salted on the outside and soft on the inside)

Dragon - i ( Durian roll, not that superb)

Xu Liu San ( HK ones are better)

My manicure nails! ( First Gelish done in my entire life!)

Some little reminders in life. :)

Wanted to share some of the photos we took from JB and my Sentosa trip however, blogging from my S3 is giving me problems to upload my pics. Anyways, I am glad that I have completed my Advanced HR assignment 3. Though I have not submitted my online submission but at least one rock has been lifted off my shoulders. Anyways, I have been watching HK drama through SCV but not totally into it as I cannot afford the time since after I watch" my love who came from another star" i have burnt much of my reminding time for my 4th assignment! Today the HK drama I watched, reminded me of something, and that is my pride and ego. Someone used to tell me that my pride would have 害死我。。 And Yes, I do carry the traits of a "Leo". I do have very strong pride and ego. Sometimes, I do hate this trait of mine. I just can't put it(ego) down at certain situation. For example, losing an argument which I think I am really right. ( Sometimes I just felt it is hard to agree to disagree ). Another example, I just can't open my mouth to tell the person I like that I like him even though he might have suspected, I would deny till my last breath. Only once in my life I initiated a " casual " date but using of a very reliable reason of borrowing a music instrument from him. Haha.. Anyways,this is a part of fairy which not many people known about.. I gotta sleep already.. Good nite folks! Fairy

Hypnotise

I was watching TruTV on SCV and came across this program where they talk about hypnotise. And when someone gets hypnotise, he/she cannot remember what happens after that and so if someone is successfully being hypnotise, one can actually order him/her to even kill someone. Which is pretty scary. And so out of curiosity, I googled about it.. And low and behold, there are actually ways to hypnotise yourself to get yourself out of stressful situations or get out of certain habits. Lately, fairy has just get out of her contract with her ex company and feels kinda down due to certain reasons, is actually not about not having a job. But some personal struggles. So I decided to hypnotise myself. Haha.. I didn't do exactly what was mentioned online as I was afraid that I get "lost" in my own mind.. I did a little as directed which was to think of a most relaxing place in the world. So where is this place in my mind? Initially, a open and broad field came into my mind and then the 2nd place came in where I see me standing in the field in front of the Effiel Tower. And sure, it drives me emotional for a moment and I feel a kind of release in me. Try hypnotising yourself and see what happens. ;)

2014 A New Year..

This blog seem like its almost dead.. Haha.. Ever since my school starts, it is always busy for me. Now its a new year 2014, Chu San. Crossing over to the New Year with a heavy heart. I know why but I have no explanation for it.. 2013 is one of the very adventurous years, picking up a new course, back in church, quitting my job, became a distributor. 2014, I ended my contract and is starting something new. Of course, this is not my first intention, unforeseen circumstances brings me to this decision. I wonder if I have made the right decision to step in at first. Making my current decision breaks me down. In fact, non of my ex colleagues or partner knows about it. I told God I have to take it easy since this is the way how it happens. In fact, much help has be rendered to me. Though I told God I will take it well but my heart is heavy. Both presurrise by my never ending assignments and my career. I really pray that God will comfort my heart and make me see in His eyes and not mine. I pray for wisdom when dealing with people. I have never stop praying about it but sometimes I wonder if it is based on my own intuition or the Holy Spirit. Sometimes, I felt very disappointed because I can't see God making things right in my life. Or is the things that happen in my life is all God's plan, if so, why can't I enjoy the process. I am confused and in dilemma, contradictory thoughts. Back and forth... Unsure and unsettled.. In this new year, I pray things will be settled, my heart, my thoughts, my mind and my spirit. ============================================= I came back to this post again because I read up on my last post. Yes, I was talking about a 6 months prayer that I have made and God shown.. I am sad with the outcome. Nevertheless, this is what has happened and God has answered in certain way. I can only go along with it. The outcome is never what I have expected. I expected it differently, of course in my perspective. What I have learnt? God has His plans and you must accept it. I know I sounded so negative and as if I had no choice. But sometimes, as humans, we can only do our best. There are certain things we cannot control. I look forward to my next post where I can talk about happy stuff and back to the positive Fairy.. Just needed some time to straighten out my thoughts... ============================================

It's been a long time.

It's been a long timme since I have blogged. Even since my school started on the start of the year, I am so tied up. Taking a few mins break from my ER assignment, I decided to blog. I have so many things to update. I really wanted to update on my life so much so that when I look back in the future, I can remember these days and how I felt at this very moment while I am blogging. June 2013 has just past. June is a very tedious and difficult month for me. The prayer which I have made with God last year end, I gave a 6 months timeline to it. And June marks an end to the prayer. Recently, I have spoken to a couple of my close friends the existance of this prayer. However, only God knows the contents to this prayer. And July marks the start of my continual prayer after the first prayer, I am very anxious of about this prayer. In fact, I had sleepless night due to my first prayer and I am surprise how much this prayer affects me. God spoke to me that He will not short-change me and asked me to trust in Him. I really pray that His will to be done and not mine. Sometimes, you work things your way and hope that the outcome turn out to be the way you want it to be. I have tried many times in my entire walk with God. And well, God always has a better plan for you. I realise that each time I used my own way to manipulate the outcome turns out to be a failure and I becomes disappointed. I need to learn to be patience and wait upon God's calling and voice. That is the purpose of a prayer isn't it? To hear from God and not your own ways. June, is also a difficult time because I am having a dilemma about my career. I wanted so much to step out in faith to do what I and my colleague have planned. However, I really wanted God to intervene into every decision I make. I admitted that I got so excited over what we have planned for and I am no longer sure if it is my own desire/passion or God's calling to step out. Stepping out requires great faith because I have to give up my current job, my stable pay, my current flexi time to something unknown. I know myself too well, not a strong risk taker. I need stable finances for my studies and can I risk my savings to it? Just paid a good hard cash to school and I am almost broke. I needed peace from a decision and know that it's mine. June, is tedious because I am having my toughest module taught by the strictest lecturer. But I am glad she taught us well. I love the module but she is superbly strict and all of us slept for only 3 hours rushing for each assignemnt 1-3 weeks before assignment's deadline is up. Other than such a stressful post I am posting tonight, I hope that I have more time to update my blog regularly. I wanted to record down every feelings I've been through, every snippets of my life. Good night everyone, I am probably gotta stay on a little while to do up partial of my assignment. Love, Fairy

I need to be Anointed...

At a point today, I was rather disappointed.. I am asking God, "why?"

My 2 mentors

Not sure, it's due to the strain of time consumption, every min and hours calls for my need to sleep. Many changes are happening around me. Fairy is more or less used to school and she is able to cope slightly better as the previous month. Now, 2 of my beloved colleagues have left the organisation. Both are my mentors, and I have learnt so much from them. I really feel so sad to see them leave and I am missing them already. My team leader left us 4 days ago and it felt like months to the team. New structures and changes are a BIG thing in the organisation now and with our limitations, we can only do our best. Hope that I can give more updates to my life but.. Yea..Wait till I am slightly free so that I can post out pictures and other stuff..

God must have love me a lot...

Praying for God's protection.. temptations are everywhere.. sometimes, the further u flee, the temptation will come nlook for u.. but god did promise me that he will not any ttemptation too much for me to bear..

School

After having living in lala land for a few years.. * lala land defines as in land of comfort zone* Fairy realised that she needs a lot of effort get herself backon track especially now with the very busy schedule of school.. My bridging courses are costing my life.. As in most of my tme were spent with school, assignments and studying for exams. I remembered it was just a month ago, where my first 2 assignment was up. I took 2 weeks to finish it and I slept like only 4 hours a days because of my assignments. The assignments were not that tedious but because Fairy hates reading, she almost died reading articles and things related to her projects. Never in her life time has she read so much.. Now Fairy has kinda used to the life of busi-ness.. Today one of the first 2 assignments grades were out and Fairy scored 8 out of 10. This makes her super happy as she knows that her effort did not go down to drain. Talking about my work, some of my coursemates were encouraging me to find a new job relating to my studies so as to build a ground before I graduate. So I am still praying to God for my career path as my current job seems pretty stagnant already. Deuteronomy 4:29 But if from there you seek the Lord your God, you will find him if you seek him with all your heart and with all your soul.

I am so tied up...

Hi folks, it seems like a long long long time since I have any updates here. In case, you are wondering? No I am not gone..I am still kicking and alive... As my school had started in Jan 2013. My days are packed with classes, assignments and lots of mid night old.. Tonight is another night I have to say good bye my sleep.. Gotta chiong out 2 assignments by next week.. Taking up this course takes up loads of courage. For me, studying is like an impossible thing.. I never had thought s about further studies even since I barely climb through m Diploma with SP. Having no talent in writing English adds on to the difficulty for Fairy in writing assignments. I remember my first assignments was only 800 words and it took me 2 full weeks to write and edit and phasing it into proper sentenses. However, through these struggles, I enjoyed gaining knowledge.. I learnt so much in the pass month.. Suddenly I felt so smart in just less than 2 months.. Knowleadge is indeed powerful!!! My new year resolution is simple. I am leaving everything in my life to God's almighty hands.. My studies, my carrer, my ministry and my life partner.. Sometimes, it is not so easy. With someone like Fairy, she will always uses her own effort to achieve the things she has planned for. However, over the years she realise that she fail time and again.. And each time, it gets tougher and tougher and she fell harder and harder... God didn't promise me that my life will be easy but He did promise me that all things happen for my own good.. And I will be pleased with His plans.. I am very excited for the life ahead of me.. In the first time in my entire life, i felt excited over uncertainities... Manz.. That was so not me... Anyways, last night I had a dream.. I dreamt that I was playing in a playground with a little girl.. About 1-2 years old.. She is so cute but I cannot remember her face.. I am carrying and protecting her while we slide down a long turning slide together.. After which, I went home and found that my house was having cockroaches everywhere... I went to my mum;s bed and saw many cockroaches on her bed.. and I went over to my bed and the same! I remembered myself so tired but cannot sleep because I was afraid of the cockroaches on the bed.. And felt uneasy.. Anyone can interpret my dream? Hehe...

2012 a year of many events

2012 is coming to an end real soon.. so many happenings in 2012 and I do not know where to start. I thank God for this wonderfl year.. Though I went thru heartaches, disappointment but I also enjoyed the year and learnt many new things... One of the great event of 2012 is that Ben & JQ finlly got hitch! A very good friend of mine... And I am really really very happy for her...

The busy schedules of Fairy...

Haven been blogging for many months! Was super busy with my work, assignments and other activities! Life was so busy that it flies without me knowing! I hope time stays for a while so I wouldnt get old without realising it... Went to Din's wedding's on Wednesday at Mandarin Orchard hotel. The layout of the ballroom is superb! The tables are layed in 3 levels. So all the guest are able to see what's happening on the stage. Some ballrooms in hotel are filled with pillars and hidden in blind spots. This I could say, it was great ambience and layout but poor waiter have to walk up and down the stairs to serve us food and drinks.

Pretty Bride first Halloween @ USS. experience was great but it can be better.. I felt that the crowd was way too much for USS to handle.. The amount of people who went to USS on Thursday was like CNY at Chinatown.. It took us 2 1-2 hours to Q for each haunted house/ ride.. That was a little dissappointing.. In the end, before we went back, the Q for the cabs was like the Toto Q for 3 million dollars.. Eversince after the whole thing, I believe no Q is too hard for us to bear!

More pics uploaded in FB!