Good times...

Running thru my photos saved in my thumbdrive... Flashes back loads of memories... Good times... Good times..


Me with my short curly hair... Not long ago... The so call, "HK look"


Celebrating my 2010 Birthday with my WT colleagues...


Forgive my hair for the bad hair day... So cui that I have to band it up!


Yea... I seem like I'm in the limelight that nite...


Went to LL's nephew's Birthday whose Birthday falls in August as well! That's Cielo! My God Daughter...


My 2010 birthday celebration with BL colleagues...


The only bouquet of flowers I rec'd last year... :p


My 2010 birthday celebration with the current "Ex BL" colleagues.. LOL.. I remembered I got scolded by them cos I was late during the meet up... Ok, I was at the other gift show...


My 2010 Birthday Celebration with the folks...


The babes...


Now with everyone around...


Then we went CHIJMES for a romantic night out...


If i didnt remember wrongly... I think I drank Erdinger that nite... One of my favourite Beer!


I reposted this picture becos I felt that we are very chio that nite..LOL..


If I am right.. We took this celebrating JQ's birthday at Central''s Waraku.. And the superb long prayers made by Gman at the Clake Quay bridge!


Wei lin, Gman and Ben seem to be very happy over there...


XMM & Myself in one of the camps! It seem so long ago to me..


Taken @ TCC a long time back... can you remember this, XMM?


A gathering @ the Japanese Restaurant at Turf City with my family members.. Cousin, sis, me... Actually, we are a bit drunk then( if u see our faces, its red!)... Drank some very powderful Sake...


Dina and myself.. She is attached then... Now she's married and carrying a baby!


I think this is my first bday celebrated at BL.. Alright, I know that's a load of bday celebration...


CG @ Settlers cafe...


Teddy is walking across my table.. ( BL times) Look, I am still using my Motorola mirror phone then...


Celebrating Rebecca's birthday @ a ramen stall @ Centrepoint basement...


Singapore tallest Chocolate tower?


@ Mediacorp doing countdown live...


With Rebecca @ the airport doing our "2009" resolution... ( If i didnt remember the year wrongly)


Probably my first show @ BL...


Gosh... I think we took this pic 9-10 years ago!


Unveil... Butterfly black got 1st runner up!


Unveil 1st Audition...




2008 Xmas party @ far east Square... reb looks super chio in this pic!


I love this pic... I think its a activity we have to do to win the game...


I purposely choose to post this pic cos JQ's face is a classic! LOL..


This is a typical photo why you shouldn't have 2 person holding the camera for a shot...


Utterly Cui and crispy hair... Amazed O_O


If I am right, this is the camp where I am tagged with the name, " Ru Hua".. Ahh...

SCREAM !!!!!!

What is everyone talking about 80 后? Anyway, today we had an event at jurong national library.. And guess who i saw outside the library? XYZ!!! Ahhh SCREAAAAAAAM!!!!!!!

Music of Life...

I was at Central yesterday after work... There's this Internation Lion Dance Competition at the river between Central and clake Quay... I love lion dance to bits! There are competition groups from Thailand, Indonesia, Hong Kong and Singapore.. These were the flags I saw.. Dunno if there are more...

Not sure if I have mention before, I used to dream about dating a lion dance drummer.. LOL.. Just felt that it was kool! Anyway, that's the past! Haha...

Talking about that, is our jamming session confirmed? It seem like most of the folks are too busy to reply to the email..

Guys, if you see this.... Please reply to my email then we can book the studio le...

There's a song in my head...

Lee Hom's song, 你不知道的事 has always been in my mind for these few days especially after our jamming session... My ex-colleague had tag this video of a guy who sang it I think from US called Jason Chen... His voice is good! But I really think our very own Gman can do as well or even better!!! Can you just imagine he can sing 你不知道的事 so amazingly even with our superly hideous music...LOL... I have faith that with his drowning voice, greatly blessed looks and that superb "boobs" of his can bring him far... He should just join the next Singapore idol or project Super Star...

Here's the video of 你不知道的事 from Jason Chen


Another English song from Jason Chen and his friend, Jospeph..
Actually I felt that his friend is a Jacob look alike! Apart from his protruding "boobs", his expression is also quite alike...



2nd day at work

Ask me how's my day so far? Lol.. Guess what? Whatever I've mention in my previous post did came true! I am so thankful... My supervisor and colleagues have superb level of patience... And they are very very nice people.. I kinda like the enviroment as far as what I have seen... Not sure if there are things underneath but so far its so good...

Except 1 thingy... Almost all clothes in my cupboard are forbidden in my office... HR & supervisor say that my top is too cut in or in another words, exposed and my skirt is too short... Manz... Must dig le!!! Jia lat... I have kept all my longer skirts and pants in the cold palace which i have forgetten where I have placed them!!!

2 days of product training and my memory space in my brain is so over loaded with information! As people who know me well, my brain space is like 512 MB... Extremely small storage space...( yea i know) That's y I always have an external hard disc which is my diary to store my important stuff for me...

Anyway, its a pile of information for me to absorb! Gambattee!!!

Another absolutely random post in 2011

It seems like my last few posts were so random and nothing exceptionally great to read about... Yes, so many things happened so quickly that I had to take like a lifetime to blog about it...

2010 had past and it was a great year of many ups and downs... A year of events that I would never forget... Indeed, 2010 would be a year that carries a lot of memories which I think I can share to my grandkids in the future... Loads of events took place for the very first time in my entire life!!! How great was that? Maybe I should call for a celebration.. lol.. However, it could be I have matured a little on this path that things weren't too hard for me to handle... I wouldn't deny in breaking down uncountable times in 2010 however God see me thru it all... which I am absolutely thankful about that...

Going to Genting is a great kick start to 2011! Though I lost RM100 in the casino :p but still~ I enjoyed the entire trip in the superb cool weather with a bunch of hilarious people...

I will be starting my new job this coming Monday... Oh when did I quit again? LOL.. This job is a entire new enviroment with a total different jobscope... I do not know if this is a blessing in disguise cos I applied for a particular role and I was asked to interview for another role... which I have no idea about it until the 2nd interview... LOL.. Blur Fairy.. BUT I got the job! I hope that this new job will input new insights in me... And of cos, I pray that there will be understanding, friendly, nice, non-political, patience ( ok ok.. I will stop here) bosses and colleagues...

Sometimes I do look at KK and wonder how did he ever survive without a job? LOL... Drop me your wisdom.. LOL~

Anyway, CNY is around the corner... I haven bought any new colthings yet... I was just telling JT that we always buy new clothings that it doesn't matter whether its CNY or not!!! Haha.. Probably just an excuse for us to buy more clothings.. However, I wanted to get a cheong sam for new year if possible.. And I can wear it again during my brother's wedding... Hehe...

Here'a a very swee~ one I found thru the internet... But I think its a little too exaggerating to wear it during CNY visits... As for my brother's wedding, I hope I wouldn't dress like the waitress there... LOL~

Probably would have it shorter up to above my knees.. ( As usual~)



Wooo... It's a massive bunch of words up there... Yea, I am expecting God to do great things in my life this year!!!

Happy New Year!!!

I am sick again.. Can u believe it? Just had a fever last week before gman's birthday and now i have been vomitting and ls-ing.. Manz.. I hope i will be healtier for this coming year..

Christmas Eve . Merry Christmas . Shanghai Dolly . Lost camera . Lost wallet . Police report . Worst Christmas for someone .

Just happen to watch Channel U as they are showing Boys Over flowers, Korea Version... this particular episope is shot from Macau... And realise that almost every tourist spot they went, we went there too during our last trip to Macau! Even the egg tart store near "Da san Ba" also the exact same store...

I suppose JQ really wanted to visit Macau cause of this show too.. LOL... But I would agree with her that its a great place! And I love it more than Hong Kong..

A Life of expectancy...

Life is never the easiest for the past months. Or rather, life is never easy...

The past months are faced with many battles. Battles of the heart, battles of the carrer, battles I have never faced before. Though times are not easy but I am glad I have faced it with courage. I don't blame God or anyone what has happen. I used to asked what if "these" didnt happen, I would have a good job, a good pay, a good love life and probably nothing else I could asked for...

However, I thank God for what has happened. I have learnt so much from these experiences.. It was times like that that I have grown... I have grown to see out of things... Things that happen out of our control. Not everything will fall into place as where you expected it should be... however, all things come to an end... Though it might not have what you expected, but it is definetly God's best for you.

Things changes, people changes and I changed. Probably from the different experiences each person goes through which has made the person. When you think your life is in ruins. And that's the gift of transformation. People step in and out of your life. People who hurt you, people who loved you, people who helped you, people who taught you... Everyone that comes across your path is a mentor to you.

Life, I love to face it with expectancy...

我也想能苦中做乐。。

现在的心情十分得差。我记得这同样的感受同样的痛。为什么这样的事情一直同样的在发生？

但我也记得苦近干来的感觉。我希望我这一生中能够学会这一门学问这一门知识。

希望雨过后真的能有彩虹吧！

天天想你

當我佇立在窗前　你愈走愈遠
我的每一次心跳　你是否聽見
當我徘徊在深夜　你在我心田
你的每一句誓言　迴盪在耳邊

隱隱約約閃動的雙眼　
藏著你的羞怯
加深我的思念　
兩顆心的交界
你一定會看見　
只要你願意走向前

天天想你　天天問自己　
到什麼時候才能告訴你
天天想你　天天守住一顆心　
把我最好的愛留給你

Tomorrow is another week at work!

Yesterday we attend an event at zouk, velvet, underground... After 1 day break and tomorrow is another day at work.. so not used to work on Saturdays! Manz... I felt like my weekends are burned!

Anyway, here are the pictures we took yesterday... Though we did not drink, but I was totally drained out after the event yesterday.

PS: I hope my boss wouldn't talk/nag to me about work, targets, things to do and everything that relates to work everytime she is with me... Ahhhh... Aren't there any other things else to talk about or joke about???


Link to pictures,
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=242458&id=734347701&l=ebd284d82c

Maybe i should do i cozy corner in my office as well.. :p

I am having prata now while blogging using my iphone.. I make it a way tat i will have breakfast before i start my new day at work.. Everyday is a drag but i look foward to the prata.. Its the only way to motivate myself at the moment.. I hope i will adapt soon or probably i will leave before my probation ends..

The rules here are " eyes rolling".. Which i really cannot accept honestly.. Beside pay cut and leave cut that i somehow reluctantly accepted, there are more ridiculous ones ahead.. Wat to do... That's life....

Super long holidays are over!!!

After a few weeks of job search, i finally found a job.. The job wasn't really my ideal job plus there are a couple of doubts in me of the offer.. But anyway, i took up the offer due to the fact tat my savings are running low... Lol...

Tomorrow is my first day and i hope every thing goes on well..

During my super long holidays i haven been blogging much either as we are on a mission to revamp my house... Our mission is to revamp my no longer study area into a cosy corner with the least amount of money spent possible.. The cosy corner is almost done... The number 1 thing to get is a mini drawer to place all my cards, tiny stuff and my precious neo prints & love getties taken when i was younger.. Next would be a powerful fan to keep the place kooling for humans to dwell in..

We ( sis & myself) had set a couple of rules in the cozy corner..

1) no nagging and noise should be heard in the cozy corner ( obviously this rule is meant for our parents)
2) food & drinks are allowed ( if u didnt know, my mum set the rules tat food & drinks are only comsumable in the kitchen)
3) we ( sis & myself) are the managers at the cozy corner.

So wat have been done at the cozy corner?

Due to budget constrait, we have bought some furnitures to make the place like a mini resort rest corner..

Back from Sri Lanka!!! A land of elephants...

I am back from Sri Lanka last week!!! It was a great experience... Comparing Singaporean and Lankan in the rural area... They are a bunch of happier people... Lifestyle isnt as bad as no clothing or food.. However, unlike us they do not have computers, PSP, play station and other entertainment technology... They play games like Criket ( something like baseball) , field games and so on...

They are very very nice people. I do not know if people from poorer countries tend to cherish kinship & other relationships better or just that Singaporeans are too busy to bother about it...

People always write about Ugly Singapore.. Of cos, not on the outside but on the inside... Working enviroment are mostly political, filled with backstabbers, smiling people with a sword kept under their sleeves... These things are sickening... And I am really tired of that.. However, what can we do as we are living in such a world...

There are pros and cons living in different kinds of lifestyle standards. Like them, they look at us in awe and envy... The beautiful clothes we wear, the gadgets we are holding... But they didnt see the cons side...

Likewise, in exchange of their happiness and strong bond within their village are their hard work under the hot sun...

So who is better? There's always not a definite answer..



Sri Lanka trip (Day 1)
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=210816&id=734347701&l=2f38a4be64

Resident Evil - Afterlife

Watched Resident Evil on Friday and yesterday, I dreamed about zombies!!! I dreamed that I am one of the survival going around shooting zombies... Manz.. that was scary... Comments of the show? Haiz, disappointment... Actually it was similar to the last story.. Just that this time Alice and friends is trying to flee from the building to the ship... And the axe guy, just came out of no where is really dotzzzz..... at least give us (Those who did not play the game) a introduction of that guy lah...

My sis say that there are 2 star VIPs in this show, and they are the big axe guy from silent hill and the ang mo guy who looked like Mr Smith and move like Mr Smith in Matrix... LOL..

Yes, I am enjoying the super long weekend.. I hope I wouldn't spend all my savings away... I still have not recevie my last pay cheque... Super duple Broke!! :(

Besides considering the offer I have, I have tried sending out my resume to a couple of companies today.. I hope that they will respond to my emails.. :)

They are like cockroach!!!

I am very surprise today.. I receiced a forward email from my ex boss.. Its abt this corespondance with this sisi advertiser... He never seem to die! I remember during my first year in this coy.. He complain to my lady boss abt how unflexible i am.. And till i leave this company.. He is still complaining abt , " how un becoming of me!"

wth man..

Thank god that my ex boss is not some assholes that believe wat this sisi said! He seem to have forgotten or rather tout he have said something to me but he did not! I have purposely copied my boss in the correspondance so tat he cant deny.. And as expected from this sisi.. He came out the same stunt!! Can't this people just snap it off already..

Putting people's job at risk like tat.. He is a entrepreneur so wat!!! He is still a sisi!!!

I am not bad at heart.. Everyone knows he is a sisi or rather gay!!!

If i am still ard in the coy, i will not rest the matter.. I will give him a piece of my mind and send all correspondance we had to shut his bloody mouth..

iphone Apps...

After I quit, I am busy with my errands... Went to collect my overdue dreamweaver cert which I took up the course in year 2009! Went Bugis to make payment for my Sri Lanka trip, alright becos I was dragging the payment so I had to go down personally to secure the flight seats.. :p

One excuse for me to get KOI bubble tea!!! The quene is super long... It never cease to become shorter...

We also went to Chinatown to shop for gifts for the little ones in Sri Lanka... Actually, I am really excited to go to Sri lanka... I have met up with the trip leader and 2 kid sponsors for the trip... Nice people with big hearts...

And next week, we'll be going down to WV office to pack the gifts...

I have also been very active with my iphone apps lately... XMM introduced to me the pudding camera which is superbly kool... I download a couple more camera apps to play with the settings... Which was pretty fun!!!

Ok, here's Fairy's work!!!

Sepia

Magazine cover

Envelope border

Film border

Ghost pic

I guess its a scandal cover...

Blurred out...

4-shots

High contrast...

Mono

Ridiculous....

Everyone must have heard the news on the HK tourist bus got hijackked by the ex-commando... It is such a sad news... Actually on the day that the incident took place, I heard from my colleague about this and felt that it should be a small issue and matters should be solved quite easily... BUT the Philipines police force are such a disappointment... I meant there are some many highly trained policemen there... And what a strategy?@#&%#@

They actually smashes the rear window of the bus! For??? I do not know? As if it helps in the negotiation by smashing the window... And the negotiation team? They really need to study psychology... Not to say the media...

Sadddzzz =(

Fairy is going to be a year older!!!

In just mere hours, I will be one year older!!! I'm like entering my late twenties liao... I felt so old with so many unaccomplish stuff in my to do list...

What is my Birthday wish?
I have lots... If you are a reader of my humble blog, you will see that I am having a tough time this year. I do not know if its the tyroid that is causing all my moodiness or some wrong decisions I made that cause me to hit high in my tyriod... I get very agitated easily. Therefore, my first wish is for health. My physical, spiritual, mental and emotional healtiness...

Second, I hope to have an increase boost of faith and having confident in the future.. This year, I have seen nasty things and I do not want to elaborate further.. I am really disappointed in many things... I've lost many things.. I lost faith in things, myself and almost God...

Thirdly, I pray to be confident of God's creation...

Forthly, I pray for wisdom... I believe wisdom is a very important talent that God bless a man...

Fifth, I hope for contentment... I hope that everyone is able to be contented with what God has placed in his hands... Especially living in Singapore, we complain about almost everything... We should see how Bangladesh workers eat their Nasi Briyani in the rain under a tree (branch I would call that)...

Sixth, I pray to be an influencer and stand for what I believe.

Seventh, to be able to make the right decisions according to the HS prompting. I never regret my choice usually.. But this year, I made a wrong move and causes me so much regret... doctors would have given me epidural for this kind of agony... I hope leaving my job is not another regret...

Eighth, a safe trip to Sri Lanka. Yup, i will be going to Sri Lanka with World Vision in Sept after i quit my job... Too bad JQ is not there...

Nineth, everyone will be happy and joyful...

Tenth, to create a bucket list and fulfil it!!!

LOL...

God's blessings

Things are still as busy though I have tendered... I really do not know what is ahead of me. Anyway, I will trust God that what is done is the best for me.

Sometimes, I do worry that I tender without getting a job. But come to think of it, I finally had time to think through what I really want in life. I am a passive person who doesn't really go after what I want. I usually sit till the apple falls from the tree..

I shall not fear or worry about tomorrow and live today to the fullest...

All the way, Fairy!

I have tendered...

Finally, I threw my letter for real.. It's time to find what I really want to do in life.

But before that, I am going to bring my to do list to action!

Love this song!

I watch The Sorcerer's Apprentice and really loved the theme song! Secret by OneRepublic..



Can we jam this song one day? Without the violin part?

Relieved...

Finally the fair that we all worked so hard was over! I am so happy and relieve. I have made further plans for my carrer path. I love my job as a sales person here but things has changed since the "big" company took over...

People changes, things changes, matters changes and priority changes... It changes so much that I cannot take it any more... Dissapointment kills motivation...

I hope all the best to the company...

Is this life?

I just bath and settle nicely in bed.. I came home not long ago from office.. This is the last lap and its the most tedious period of all.. My voices and complaints do not come from all these late nites stays in office but the appreciation a coy can give.. I do not need praises and i do not need sarcams as well. When u keep ur mouth shut its better than a word of praise from mouth. At least, now i've learnt.. Once a person got an impression of u of a certain way, the impression stays clear thru out. Now give me 3 reason why should i work in a company who brings you down everyday?

Perhaps its "xxx" strategy.. Who knows...

Don't try to please everyone.. U can fool others but u can't fool me..

But i will not tell u that... I will see what is up on ur sleeves..

The light will reign so don try too hard...

When people known u for too long, they take u for granted.

To accept and change for the better...

I wanted to have a good sleep today and start afresh tomorrow. This weekend is a refreshing one.. though I went back to office on Saturday and help my dad for both days at the stall but that doesn't spoil my weekend... I still went out after that to spend time with my friends which I believe friends are very important people in one's life...

We eat, we talk, we play and we forget all the troubles we have when we were together because you know they accept you of who you are... Life is short, I want to have my life as fulfilled as possible..

I did lots of thinking this weekend and decided to give myself one more chance to try out at work... I hope a new mind-set and a refresh heart helps me to pick up this challenage...

No one has the rights to kill your confident, no one has the rights to kill your heart, no one has the rights to kill your dreams but yourself...

心结

Surprise surprise... I tried logging in to blog and I was linked back to my old blog...That was like when I was still doing my attachment in my Poly days!!!

I read a little and I realised 2 things. One: I was so HOLY. TWO: My english seems better in the past!!!

What happen!!! I degraded myself? I cannot believe it... After reading my thoughts from the past, I was encourage by myself... How strong a believer and firm I was. I wrote that my dream was to be an engineer which is the total opposite from now!!! And I was even shouting in my blog that how fire up I was to be a dream releaser... LOL.. I was so surprise..

Was it something God wants to direct me to? I was thinking of my carrer path and was browsing at some job seeking website. I wasn't frantically seeking for a job but to say that I have not thought of a change of job, I was lying... Folks who read my blog knows how stress I was for these period of time and I prayed for a sign for God to show me if I should stay on or move on...

Someone said she hates herself for being like this and like that.. Which i strongly can indentify and understand her.. Sometimes in hard time, and all bad stuff comes whacking into ur face one after another, u would either react ur best or ur worst.. Which in most cases, the latter.. And thru it, we understand ourself better..

And i read a verse in the bible which says," the world is not a stage".

We are not performing for anyone but ourself.. I guess god allow things to happen for a reason. And to teach us and reveal who we really are.

I hope this testing will not break us but makes us stronger. No matter whether we survive "there" or not. Probably its a beginning for all of us.. A new story to write & tell.

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will...

sometimes, when I looked at how ineffecient and unproductive people were... which causes me lots of sleepless nights, stress-filled days... I wonder... Am I like that too when I just came in... after all these years, I know my weaknesses very well... Or perhaps still discovering more on the way...

I am so tired that I felt like crying... I am not self-pitying.. I just felt helpless and I cannot express myself... when I express myself, I seem to make things go worst... When I do not, I felt surpress... I had thoughts about typing my resignation letter though I am too tired to do so... Then I chance upon this poem on the net...

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit-
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a fellow turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out.
Don't give up though the pace seems slow -
You may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than
It seems to a faint and faltering man;
Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victor's cup;
And he learned too late when the night came down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out -
The silver tint in the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It might be near when it seems afar;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit -
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

I know I should not quit... But this is not the balance lifestyle I want... I would rather earn less and have my own time than to earn more but no time to spend the money... But currently, I am earning not alot but working on the double... I hope its the transition that things are like that...

When promises are not fulfilled for more than a few times... You know this path is not as promising as it may be...

One lifetime and I am not going to slog so hard for money... I have thoughts of forming a union for Bangladesh/foreign working overseas.. to help them fight for their human rights... I think there is something like that going on now but I thought more should be done for them...

Anyway, let's see how God will tie up my current situation for me... Cos I need some revival here...

Half dead...

I hope to have some time for myself... Lately, I am so packed... Sometimes, when things dun go well... I will start blaming on the starter of these problems.. Maybe its just me who couldn't handle stress and human relations.. I sometimes wonder is this job really not suitable for me? Or is it that I should really leave when my boss asked me to back then...

I started to doubt my ability in managing people.. Am i too soft or just that I can't make myself to say certain things to people.. And as people know me better, they will climb onto my head... "Do not unto things you do not want others to do to you" Things proved that it doesn't pay to be good.. In the end the good suffer in the corner and the bad claim all the credits...

I hope i have faith to move mountains.. Then I can move the situation... LOL...

What to do? I am so confused now... this word, "stand still" comes into my mind.. I guess God wants me to stand still?

Is that a 5 star hotel or a 6 star hotel? I have doubts in it...

Mandarin Orchard service is bad!

I was invited by one of this friend from Indo to see his education method at his school which is establish in Indo and now its coming to Singapore. With the 2nd workshop held at Mandarin Orchard and no staff at Mandarin Orchard knows about this event except the cleaner...

Can you believe this? I asked for information at the conceign at the lobby and was told to look at the TV for the events of the day?!!! And he asked me to check it out myself which I told him I already had and said that it was not written there...

He then went to check it out ( not really friendly, like I was taking up too much of his time) and told me that there was no such event.. I went to level 5 lobby and was told the same... So i had no choice and went to Level 6 meeting rooms to check out myself and found out that the rooms were vacant with only a cleaner... I asked the cleaner and was directed to the location... A cleaner can tell me the location but not the conceign and counter staff!!! Can Mandarin Orchard staff take more initiative and well- informed?

Break Away...

I felt like breaking already... There are so many things to do and the show is like 1 month away.. The gal from the "big" company came on Monday evening for the briefing and start work on Tues... I felt that help came a little too late... She still need time to get used to the system, forms and enviroment... My company really dun seem to appreciate me... I think I have been saying this many times... I am trying to be positive too.. I am still feeling happy when I close a booth and I hope this sense of achivement remains before I find myself in a still mode... When you close 1, others sees that , " why 1, you should have closed 2"... "No sales? Becos you didn't follow up"

Hello... Fairy also got 2 hands only lor... And by helping me is to send help to me only 1 month before the fair? You are killing me...

Anyway, I made up my mind... If this door shuts on me, another door will open for me... I won die without this job...

At the airport now.. Probably be at jakata in a few hours time.. I'm be gg to the franchise fair in indonesia. My first time to indonesia.. I hope i will like the place.. I be back shortly even before u knew it!

As of yesterday, my company has officialy be acquisted by another company which is a wholly own subsidy of a very big holdings in SG.

So we are now staff of this company... My colleague said that I am able to take whatever it comes... That is not entirely true... Of cos, i am as anxious as them.. I asked questions too.. But answers were always vague... and I got tired... Since everyone is just as uncertain, I shall not asked too much then...

Actually the truth is, I am quite fearful to lose my job.. As now, anyone can do wat i do... It just take some time to build the experience and it can be done...

I know fear is not from God but uncertainties is wat we are facing and I am fearful.. I am not talented like abc that have their own skills. I am not as people person as xyz.. I am not as capable as efg... It's not that I am comparing myself to anyone... That's the fact of the world now... If you can't do it then out you go... Like I once had that bloody experience which I do not want history to play back again... Once bitten twice shy... I am very frighten already...

The fear of lost is very scary...

My uncle told me that stress are cause by pressure that you give to yourself... Yes, it's true... I really pray that things will go well for me in my life.. Each test comes harder to handle than the previous... Let faith cast out the fear i have... In Jesus name I pray.. Amen...

I need a hunch...

Remember I buy the book from popular in Malaysia? It is really a very useful book. I have learnt so much from it..

Many things can be read and understood theortically however technically it is not so easily done... as you know, I have been very into numerlogy and horoscope thingy recently... I regretted so much to see fortune tellers... It some how affect my thoughts about my life and so on...

The book I bought talked abt it.. "It takes a very strong mind to neutralize a prophecy of evil" Yes, and upon having the thought cast upon your sub-conscious mind, you will really believe in it and thru the faith you have in the false prochecy, it will some how be done...

Now, I am facing a carrer path crisis... and I have to make a crtical decision for myself... So I need a hunch.. I need to wake up in the morning or even doing something random and a hunch will come and tell me , ""... And I will follow...

Many times, a hunch came and my resisting and reasoning mind will ask... Why do that so I give it a miss... Proabably I missed out something that has been planned for me...

This time I will go for the hunch without reasoning.. i hope I can.. Lol.. I need very logical reason to move me to do something... It's a good thing a not... I am not sure.. But I knew God is going to change me for good... And I hope the change will be imprint in my heart...

A break for a ultimate breakthru...

I'm just back from Malaysia an hour ago... Bathed and nicely sitted in front of my laptop... I felt so happy.. I finally had a break, real break and I can see a breakthru ahead...

I read a book in Popular just now and it was amazing.. I picked up the book and bought it!!! It's a pretty thick book... If you folks know me, I do not like to read... My first and last accomplish book(till date) I think its a goosebumps book at the age of 14! can you believe it? All my friends were reading Danielle Steel books then and I had only just completed a goosebumps story book meant for primary school student...

So you can imagine how this thick book can attract me to buy it... Btw, it's not a magazine or comic... It's kind of a self improvement book which actually implements the WOG into the thoughts of the writer...

I am so eager to read this book lor... That I kept peeking into the book during dinner... Had a meal,ice blended drink and a cake in Secret recipe at only S$11.90 per pax! That's so cheap... I cannot even get such splendid food in my market with such valuabe price... Not to say in a shopping centre...

I got a new brown spec there as well.. Alright, its not done yet... will show you folks once I go for collection..

Probably its school holidays so we took some time to reach Malaysia custom in themorning even though we left SG at 9 plus in the morning... It's Brunch time when we reach there...

After this break, I felt refresh... Both physically as well as mentally... And I am ready to see a breakthru very soon..

Gambatte, Fairy...

Haven been blogging some constructive post lately.. I just heard that i be going to Indonesia for a franchise show 2 weeks later.. Actually i dun mind but i worry abt my pocket.. Lol.. The claiming part is a big issue lah.. But after the hk fair, i've learnt to record all my meals down so tat at least it brings justice to my pocket.. My cc bills is like 1000 over after i've paid half of it le! Yea lor i just do my claims and haven got the money back...

Ahhh... 钱不是万能的，没钱就真的万万不能。

anyway shall see if boss really decide to post me there for the fair..

If the situation won't change for you, then change yourself... That's always the case...

If you try too hard to make things happen, it wouldn't happen and ultimately, it may even cause problems to people around you... Because you are too into making the situation to turn into the way you want... Then you will take people for granted... And expect people to understand what the hell you are doing and in the end everyone around have to change themselves for you.. And everyone begins to change (better for some, worst for some) and you wonder why... by then it will be too late... But hack you care... Becos you don't care...

Happy movies

I am loading Shrek 3 now.. watching it in a while time.. So excited...

With hope...

I really am very sick and tired and really wanted to quit my job... I needed a break... A break from everything... I just felt like leaving everything and staying home which I think it will help... But is that a mean of avoiding, running away... In hard times, God showed me that I am not that tough after all... even in my worst days in WT, I withstand all criticism, all slanter, all back stabbing moments... I didn't cry at all.. Until my supervisor left.. Okay, I have no idea why I cried... She back stabbed me too...she didn't believe I can do it... Back then, no one trusted me... And I felt lousy... But I am so strong to go on then... I always believe that I can do it...

But now, It seems like it's harder to get thru... where have the fairy gone to? I dun know.. But I think I will still try and wait for my rainbow to come...

All the characters in dramas and movies have their troubles and problems but after the trials, they see rainbow... Things turn out well after all... I hope to enjoy that moment of joy... But without trails, how would I know that there's a rainbow... LOL.. I guess I have to wait and enjoy the process... The moulding is not easy but yet I think God will not give me things I cannot handle...

And after this, I can shout to you that... I have pass the test...

Dad bought the new Magnum Gold... It taste really really good... But its super ex lor..

Celebrated Mother's day and dad's birthday on friday.. Yes, we were like 1 week late but at least no crowd... Better quality of food too I supposed... we went dian xiao er at Lot 1 and had Ice cream at MOF after that... Mom say that MOF is Ministry of Offence... LOL.. Super funny... Then will be MOO liao... MOO....

Pictures should be up soon.. :) I hope I can give you wat I promise.. I realise I have posted any pics of my short hair yet...

I watch the 3 Spiderman episode... And I learn some moral from the movie... Man.. I love shows like that...

Faith

I have been watching movies every night before I go to sleep.. Sometimes, this is a way to kill a sleepless night... Also, I tend to watch happy movies.. Of cos, those funny ones.. I dun wan to be thinking of the sad plot while tossing my bed...

I prayed to God today that the first bus would be my bus and God answered my prayers... I always believe that once a day started well, the rest of the day would follow... LOL.. And indeed today, I felt happier through out...

Think God send someone to speak to me today... One of the advertisers I called actually tell me that faith drives everything... That if you put your faith in the earthly ways, you will get earthly results.. And if you have faith with God, you will get heavenly results...

To thin that a advertiser actually tell me that... I guess that must be an angel sent by God... LOL..

Secrets...

I just registered a wordpress account a while ago... I have decided to change to wordpress le!!! Reason? I need some pirvacy.. I need a space where I can write my secrets... LOL

Secrets yea right...

But now wordpress website seem to have some problem... erm.. I will try again at a later time...

It's such a long time...

Yes, I've been so busy and lazy to blog.. It's time to update on Fairy's life... Though so, but I'm not living a Fairy life... LOL...

Someone told me... Your life is controlled by your thoughts... How you think affects your everything!!! Which is really true... I think...

Back to the trip... My trip is a fruitful one... As in... I've learnt and experience things I've never had in Singapore... Well, the shopping part is a little on the lower side... Not much time in Taiwan to get local products except some "tie dan" metal eggs??? LOL.. Taiwan is a nice place with very good weather... It's much cooler than Singapore ( no sticky sticky) however my face becomes very very dry... 3 days in Taiwan is really not enufff...

Days in HK were bad as compared to TW... I dunno if I am not used to the food or the enviroment... I became sick on the second day and vomitted through out the night... The food I ate taste bad for the first few days... But on the last 2 days, I finally taste proper food... I got scolded twice by Honkeys on my first day there... Of cos, communication is a big barrier to me there... I understand very minor Cantonese if spoken slowly... But you know everyone in HK speaks like bullet train so... I guess you folks can guess how many question marks I had over there...

There was once I was so angry that I blunted out and blabber non-stop scolding them... Yes, it's so reputation spoiling... D:

HK was a bad experience but I learnt many things... But I know things happen for my own good...

I hope I have more patience, have more self-control and think more positively at bad things... I hope I will learn to let things go its own course and not grab tightly on controlling the situation... And I would not be easily disappointed if things dun go well but see things from another point of view...

I really hope so... At least, I will be happier like that... :D

Please keep me in prayers if you read this post... I am really very thankful... :)

Retail solutions...

I'm at retail solutions now at suntec.. Not much business at our ( their) booth.. Sitting ard and drinking my caramel milk tea..

2 More Days!!!

In just 2 mere days, and we are flying to TAIWAN!!! Wooo... I hope I manage to grab some time to do some shopping... Hehe... I promise you folks to show u my hair after the TW/HK trip... Sorry, I am very reluctant to show my auntie hair this moment...

I was going through FB and some blogs and realise that many people nowadays named their daughter Chloe... I was thinking after a few years most girls in school will be called Chloe like the Susan and Mary in the past...

I have one hope now... And that is to attain patience... LOL.. I've been very short temper lately... Extremely easy to get pissed off and angry... Someone told me that I gets agitated and flared up easily nowadays... LOL... yea.. Dunno what happen... I am not always like that... Period? illness? LOL...

Actually I went for a blood test lately.. And the results are out.. And I suspect I have tyroid... But too sure yet, will be visiting the Doc Daryl tomorrow to explain to me what the numbers meant...

Picture-less post... I know.. I know... Lazy to post pics... I will link to FB soon... Cos I can upload from my iphone there.. :p

Chaoooo...............

FHA

Today went Singapore Expo for FHA... Wow.. the show is soooo Big... I was stuck in a cab as lots of cars were there too... All thanks to boss and now I be tending a booth there... Today and tommorow and thur and fri I be a Suntec for the Retail Show... Man.. And Saturday I be flying off le... Seems like every thing just come at 1 shot.. make me superb busy...

And 1 thing... This company I'm helping at the fair... Is a Christian company and so they prayed for the leads they are to get that day... Actually I was surprise.. LOL...

Acually I haven been sleeping well since boss left... Not becos of his pressence.. But my sales seems very poor... I've been having me selling booths in my dreams very oftenly...

Haiz.. I'm not being a perfectionist or being too hard on myself... I just wanna feel I can do things on my own.. And indeed God is really putting me into the situation now...

Today i had kfc for lunch .. And the lady next to me kept telling her daughter , " stop playing.. You make until auntie already.."
After a while, i realise the auntie is refering to me!!

Is it becos of my new betty boop hair???

Sobby.. :(

Cui...

Ok i snap off my hair.. Now its short & poodlise...

傻瓜

其实他做的坏事我们都懂
没有什么不同
眼光闪烁 暧昧流动
闭上眼当作听说

其实别人的招数我们都懂
没有什么不同
故作软弱 撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭

傻瓜也许单纯地懂
爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留

傻瓜 我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤

傻瓜 我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜

Numerology

Guess wat? I went to see a fortune teller!!! and it's way of fortune telling is numerology... And I tell u.. It really really acurate... It's so accurate that its so scary...

Hmmm... I do not know how many percent of it I should believe... At first it wasn't very accurate but adding on my pin yin name to the caculations, it's so accurate lor.. 1 of the thing that she said had already happen!!!

I shall not go into the details...

OC girl...

Went service last Sunday.. And had a goo catch up with JQ after that... Actually before that, we past by orchard central and was asked by a couple of police looking models to participte in the OC girl competition.. MY entertain her as she was her classmate in SIM... I follow out of curiousity... I hope it doesn't kill the cat... LOL... Then JQ came along becos of the attractive prizes.. LOL...

OK, so they did our hair then our make up... My hair... Hhmmm.. I felt tha the hair stylist has got magical hands... One touch and my hand looked so volume... Which is perfect... Our make up is really thick and the fake eye lashes is so heavy and a barrier to our vision...

Ok.. Here goes Miss Shelby Chua after the makeover...

It's time to take a step out...

Ok I am going to Taipei then to Hong Kong this April... I was pretty scare actually.. Its my first time doing things alone overseas... ( *besides shopping.. Hehe)

I am attending the exhibition there alone and plus find my way to the convention alone, attending to the booth alone and worst of all, all alone in the hotel room... I always hear stories about dirty stuff in hotel... Like taps turning on by itself... Shaking beds in the night... Shadows on the walls...foot steps sounds outside the door... Eeewww...

Today, we had the association AGM in Soup Restaurant at Vivo City... wooo, the food is good... Much better than our Wednesday dinner at JP's Pu tian ( for Mum's B'day)... I always heard nice reviews abt Pu tian and were really anticipating but the food is much lower than my expectations... Soup Restaurant was almost execellent.. Almost every single food they brought out to us were more than passable... I got some pics from one of the exco members...


Samsui Chicken


I think this is fried fish... its good as well!!!

We had this brocolli dish and I guess the waitress is from Malaysia so her pronouncation weren't very clear.. and she introduced it to us as "chicken hercules" instead of " chicken brocolli" so I was giggling away and my president kept asking the waitress to pronouce it again and again...

Rainbow after the rain...

Lately, I am facing a huge turmoil... I am struggling everyday over almost everything... I guess its a wrong turn that cause me so much trouble... I always think back and recall should I was given a chance to return would I do the same... For many things, I didn't regret though i struggle a lot after certain decisions made... but ultimatly, I am satified , grateful and happy...

Turning back, I do regret for this particular wrong turn I took... But regretting is too late.. But yet, I do not know how to handle it... what should I do?

I hope my lifetime wouldn't have too much turmoil. It will kill me one day... LOL..

10 years later I be reading my blog again and see how I spend my time in my twenties...


May there be a rainbow after the rain!!!

Some people just like to solve problems. Why dun they do something to prevent problems from surfacing...

Anyway, JQ msn me that she dreamt of me last night... It was a ridiculous dream.... LOL...

She dreamt that I bought a house at orchard road, however the house has no doors and no security... Then Gman and KK build the door for me but with no lock... So everyone came and took my clothes and food away... Then JQ chase them off and asked me to do something to the security... Oh yes, and there were leaking pipes too but Gman and KK were too tired after building the door... And I ask JQ to stay overnight at my place... Oh and she said that I look very happy...

Hmmm... Any Joseph around to interceed the dream? Is God trying to speak something to me? Or to JQ?

My stomach has been very upset lately... Before breakfast, I tout i was too hungry but after a heavy breakfast, I felt as hngry as before!!! Pretty ridiculous!!!

Scripture says that everything is summed up in the commandment that we love God first, above all else, and that we love other people as we love ourselves. Do that and you fulfill all of God's requirements (Matthew 36:37-40).

God casts the responsibility on us to choose that which is best for us. These choices come inevitably from the judgments we make about what reflects our highest selves.

(Thumps up!!!)

Preparing for a new day tomorrow... I have been thinking a lot lately due to some unforeseen circumstances.. Things that I never expected to happen happened... I happen to watch a portion of Bolt in Disney Channel today and realise something that I've been forgetting thru these years... Okay, I am a peace maker and I don really like arguements... I would try not to bring up or speak future should I feel that things is not going on well.. well most of the time... And like that, I became very unspoken and less rightous...

I guess arguements would happen should things really have to be rectify itself... And often I wouldn't be very rightous as if i would bring the right things up a heated agruement will happen... I used to do that I hate to be in the mess and guilt for yelling at people... Okay, thats one reason why I dun attend church lately.. LOL.. cos i know I will always feel very bad...

You know the feeling in the situation when you cannot agree with certain point and hope to be understood? But was often "force" to accept in certain ways but if it really hit my limits and I will start to rectify? And becos there were disagreements and things would often gets heated up? And your voice gets louder and causes many mean words? And you feel very guilty after that?

Yea.. That's what I am talking abt...

But this show Bolt struck me... That this world have to have disagreements and arguements so that things would get rectified, you would get heard and also causes relationships to get closer...

I think disney cartoon always have lots of morals in it... LOL

My dad lost his HP from Thailand and I lost my pink HP pouch from Thailand...

他过得很好，我就司比管呢？

Happy Chinese New year!!!

You folks must be surprise to see me here... LOL.. Yes, I am still in office working... Everyone is off for holidays and no one wants to entertain me... And here I am blogging openly in my office...

Of cos, bosses are not around... Last day of work in 2009 in the chinese carlendar, I am actually quite scare... You folks should know by now that I am quite supersitious lately looking for fortune teller and even went to popular and Kinokuniya for fortune books... I am prepared for the next year physically but emotionally I am not too sure...

Oh dear... God, Please comfort your daughter here...

At my work place, I can feel the imtensiveness already as our competitor seem really agreesive and adding stress to boss and myself...

Social life.. I have been hibernating at home and with only a couple of good friends... I know I should mix around with people so as to get my heavy mind occupied... ( incase you dun know, my mind is heavy because I have got big brains)

Love life... Lan Dao Huas....

I am looking forward to 2010, of cos for a better situation... Like the above, I cannot control things and people...

Anyway, Happy Chinese New year!!!

May everyone be happy, healthy and fruitful with knowledge, wisdom and everything in life...

Money is the root of all evil...

I wanna travel....

After the BKK trip, I'm planning for Taiwan this april... However, the HK, China and Tw shows all falls in the month... And initially boss dun allow me to go on leave... But bosses gave an alternative which is attending the Tw show and go there for holiday at the same time... wooHooo... Is it a good thing or a bad thing...

When I look into my account online, my face turned green... ok.. No more spending only saving until my Taiwan trip...

Ok... Pictures taken in BKK using my iPhone... Hmm.. alright I using some Pics from Jq's fb...


Places we went...


Taken at Baiyoke

CNY on the way!!!

I was watching Channel U just now at this Korea drama... I think its a popular drama about this wife who was killed by the husband luckily suvived and came back for revenage... It's my first time watching today so I'm not sure who is who... But some roles are pretty obvious... All in all... The moral of the story... Guys are all jerks... And it is never nice to be under the same roof with your MIL...

When I was young i remember the news timng was always sponsored by Raymond well... And today I saw that it was from this pretty popular Bak Kwa... LOL.. Pretty funny...

CNY is just around the corner... I hope things becomes better... And I am looking forward to this New Year!!!

I'm getting sick....

=(

After the trip, I have to wash the dishes everyday... Help my dad for the entire weekend... I really really really hate to help out at the stall... My dad is the number 1 hardest person to work with.... I rather work 7 days a week in office rather than help out my dad... Haiz... I reallly hope to move out someday... Like my brother is really having a good life now... Though he is not married yet, but he lives in his gf house wit his future MIL to help him in dishes and he do not need to help my dad any more...

I really pray to be contented... I need the wisdom to be smart as well... I felt that sometimes I really do things without using my brains, and after the big effort I put in, everything gone to a waste... Sometimes, i do look up to my boss for that...

Sometimes, I wonder where did I misplace my brains... I felt really stupid... and useless...

things have not been good since I came back from Thailand.... Why some people just like to make use of another person... why... can people like that tell me? is it so good abt it... It means nothing to you but it has done a irreversible thing in my heart...

Call me stupid... Blame me stupid....

I hate people like you...

Thailand is just awesome...

I'm Back!!! Touch down in Singapore last mid night... It was a tired but fruitful trip! The gals bought stuff as if those are FOC... I spend like 900 SGD in total ( inclusive of flight , accomodation and expenses) Hooo.. However, I felt that the trip was a great and enjoyable one though we walk until our legs rot...

We felt that chatuchak was a great place however it was raining when we got there and we did not manage to finish our shopping there... We were suppose to stay at Baiyoke Boutique but they upgraded us to Baiyoke Suite which we aren't very happy abt it... The services of Baiyoke hotel and their staff are not really impressive... Everything is about money... Unlike my last stay at Eastin 3 years back (it was still a 3 star hotel then) their services are unconditional... where they treat all their customers with genuine smiles and go all out for them... A huge disppointment for the hotel at Baiyoke... (at least the room is big and cover that lack in them)

Baiyoke is located just in front of Pratunam and just few mins walk to Platimum Mall... It was a cool location and with maximum accesibility... But Chatuchap offers more special stuff all in all ( though prices are at a higher end compared to Pratunam...

Suan Luan was just as good... Prices were indeed much higer but certain goods are still worth the buy...

And MBK, we spend quite a lot of time there too... TNL bought a blackberry there, and we had our phone crystalise there too... Wooo... really kool...

I guess I won't buy any more stuff until my next trip to Taiwan... Hehe...

Well... After this I have to wait for my bonus le... Haiz... After the trip, I am in lack now... Yea, plus my 600 bucks iPhone, I would have spent 1000+

Well, 1 more thing... we met this eerie artist at Suan Luan which gave us all a creep...I shall not go into the details...

anyway, spotted lots of cute boys there... I really like Thailand a lot and hope that I can find a good Thai boy to marry to... Hehe... But I think the chances are slim...

Gotta go... Tomorrow I be back in office slogging again...

BKK.. Here I come...

Flying to BKK in another 12 -13 hours... Hoo... So excited.... Finally I can have a break from the hectic life in Singapore...

After the rain, there's always a rainbow???

The Japan show is finally over!!! BUT... I am still OT-ing for the report... Japanese are very very particular.. However, the one we worked with is more than that...Anyway, I dun feel like talking it... This small fair is a very tedious one.. maybe it's our first time doing a business matching session in Singapore... And it proves hard!!! Plus with Japanese... i am totally baycotting working with them... Hmmm.. Alright, maybe only not with "him"...

Alrights, small fly won't earn more with just a mere show.... ( a tedious one)

After this Japan show, the only reward after this freaking rocky race is their fantastic food which they brought from japan... We got some cream rolls and veg balls from them... BUT this BRINGS MY BIGGEST DISAPPOINTMENT OF THE YEAR!!!!

Boss and his family ate all the cream rolls becos he says it expires over the weekend... WTH... I dun care abt the veg balls!!! I just want the Cream Rolls!!!! I waited and i felt so angry or rather "buay gan muan" That feeling is just indescriptable... U know Japan Pastry fillled with lots of cream!!! They are the BEST!!! It is so long that I felt like that... since i was a kid... I guess.. It's like leaving your favorite chicken part to eat last and in the end, it dropped onto the floor... It just this feeling!!!

I think the only way to kill this feeling is to stab a knife into my heart... Haiz... I am so so .....................................

My CREAM ROLLS!!!!

My CREAM ROLLS!!!!

I am not expecting a lot for my bonus... I am prepared for another disappointment.. I understand last year's show was not very good... But i hope boss consider only the 4 of us finsih the show... Which IS A GREAT DEAL...

It's only the begining of 2010 and so many unhappy things happened... I hope things get better after CNY... If God is really here... and astrology are fake... Please show me!!!!

iPhone is always on my mind... went Vivo to transfer my M1 line to Singtel.. It was good to see no Q in the singtel dealer shop... I got all documents ready to proceed all the necessity... I even got MY BRO'S IC WITH Me!!!.. when the staff told me that I got black listed by them cos I got unpaied bills...

And this boils down to CC!!!! Stupid CC, still can act blurred... In case u dun know, I sign a residential line for CC years way back as he is from China... And he ran away leaving my name in debts!!! WTF... i am never gotta trust Chinese... i meant Chinese Chinese... not Singapore Chinese... I am not a sterotype... CC, you made me!!!

right! how bad can it go....

After the rain, there's always a rainbow??? How much I can believe in it....


MY CREAM ROLLS....

Today I almost cried cos I accidently deleted my scedules for the show day after tomorrow!!! And... I have to re-do everything...

I am so stress at work becos the show is next week... I hate the way they demand...

I know the zodiac thingy saying that this new year would be tough and tedious... alright i am very superstitions lately...I just hope things get better...

One of my resolution this year is able to overcome it...

Goodness...

Did you watch news last night? well I didn't , I got to know it thru today's newpaper... There had been an accident after the countdown on Thurs... a motorcycle skipped at PIE near clementi.. The lady rider is only 22 and is in the ICU now while the pillon who is a lady, 20 dead at the scene 25 mins after the accident... when I heard the news, it struck me... I think I am giving up on my bike lessons le.. I dun wanna die so young...

Waste 200 dollars on the lessons and $39 for the helmet... But I guess my safety is important as well..

I am making my 2010 resolutions now...

I am going to make it happen no matter wat...